Q&A with Florian/Cathbaby
Name/Nick: Florian Ramm / cathbaby
Age: 46
City/State/Country: Kiel / Schleswig-Holstein / Germany
AB/DL/BabyFur/Other? I am ABDL and in BDSM as Babyslave, also like
#watersports, so everything that deals with peepee, and I like clinic
(in combination with rubber/latex clothes), especially catheter and
enema, with and without diaperWhen did you first realize you were ABDL?
After I became incontinent (by heavy accident/brain trauma)
with 16 I was 3 years in trouble, then psychologist helped me to accept
to wear diapers. With 19 I met then a very dominant girlfriend and she
liked that I was wearing diapers
and we started role play - she made me to be her baby and I started
pretty quick to like it and to become "addicted" to ABDL (and later
BDSM); BUT 1st tendencies I had already with 12 or 13 because my sister
was/is bedwetter and had plastic protection pants
- and´I "borrowed" them and weared them as well.
What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen?
"Normal development" so diaper-free with 3 , then by
trauma/accident being 16 years old 6 month in clinic with catheter,
after catheter was out it was dripping further and since then diapers
are my daily support 24/7/365.
Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted?
Yes they know I wear diapers and it was just seeing as
"support" for me (required) but except my (Play)Friends and partners
nobody knows that I am ABDL or into BDSM play ;-)
Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain.
Sometimes yes, not for wearing diapers - that is normal for
me - but for being Adult Baby, wearing baby clothes, sucking pacifier or
thumb ; especially if I (very rarely) mess my diaper - with or without
enema... but this is very
very rare , normally I am very very open and interested in a lot of
things and have more or less no shames.
For collegebabies/DLs, did this interest affect your college experiences? If so, how?
I did not go swimming in the lake with my college partners
and had some "limits" in doing sports because I did not want somebody to
know my "handicap".
How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating? Married life? Parenting?
A lot - it is not easy to find partners to accept that kink,
and if they accept often then do not want to play as well.., Kids no
option because I am limited there as well (very low level of sperms). By
1st dates always thinking
about "how will I explain..." and "what if She/he finds my stuff..."
??
Some experts believe that we become the way we are because of
traumas experienced at an early age, including abuse and/or neglect. Do
your life experiences bear this out?
Not that I am aware of BUT my younger bedwetting sister got
lot of attention where I had to be the "strong guy", might this impacted
me
Some people have pointed out their observation that a
larger-than-average number of multiple birth babies (twins, etc.) rep
the ABDL lifestyle. If you are one of these, please explain what effect,
if any, you feel this may have
had on your ABDLishness.
I am not a twin, have younger sister.
For the older generation, please tell us more about what it was
like being ABDL before social networking. I will be looking for the
perspectives of members in their 40s, 50s, and even higher.
What is "older generation" ;-) I am 46, so as I went inside
"ABDL lifestyle" it was with my girlfriend, later (after I got single)
as got interested if others feel "baby'ish" or combine diapers and BDSM
roleplay with 1st internet
explorers, but in "social networks" I am only since 10 years, before
there were special groups or sites (more locally, more limited), now it
is more the feeling of a "global community" - and this one is bigger
than I thought - a lot of ABDL exist > and very
interesting fact: there seems to be a strong combination between ABDL
and Trans/FemBoi/PupPlay(gay, bi)...
For the little dunces, please tell us about what it was like to
discover this fetish/lifestyle on the Internet. Please be at least 18 at
the time of writing, but be specific about what age you discovered it,
what sites helped you,
and keep this part PG for obvious reasons.
I started begin/mid 30ies with diaperspace and then some
German local based websites - how did I find them ? by a linklist from a
larger diaper supplier who did not only serve incontinent also ABDL and
fetish people. My coverage:
a longer time kinks/fetishes were more "separated", since 10-15 years
they are more "mixing/melting together", same as it is for me - I
explore more and I "combine"...
Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as
babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please
tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us
what you think people should
know.
I like a lot and experiment a lot - diaper
disciplinarian/babyslave, messing/enema, clinic/catheter ; sissyfication
I did not try but I am interested, same as Trans (so having a Trans as
dominant or sub ; I switch, so I started as
Submissive but since 5 years or so I explore the dominant side as well
taking care of interested play partners ; I would declare myself now as
"Pansexual" so I like all but started as "bi" after a longer period only
attracted by girls but as said I like to
experiment and I am very curious :-)
What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you?
95% in diapers (because I am incontinent and can not be
without) and I am "addicted" too so like that squishy warm feeling (and
the smell of baby powder and urine), but 5% as well just with catheter
in "harder play sessions" as
pure rubber slave not baby, sometimes I also combine to be the "rubber
baby" with (open) catheter AND diaper AND mostly a buttplug in.
If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more
about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped
into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel.
I feel little, helpless and the other person need to tell me what to do ; and I need something in my mouth - pacifier or thumb.
Don't let yourself be limited by my questions. If you have
anything else at all that you would like to say please feel free to say
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