Crib Shot

I've been uploading some stuff 

to my

YouTube channel

in anticipation of the launch

of a project I'm currently 

in the midst of. 

I found a little video I made

of the 'crib' on the 'Luvs Boat' - 

I sent this out to a friend 

who's overseas

and can't come visit in person.

Wanted to share it

with y'all... 

There's just

two more months

(give or take)

until boating season begins!

Who's coming to visit

The 'Luvs Boat'

in 2019?

Q&A Update with Babybenjieboy

[CWIS'S NOTE] Up today I have a Q&A update with someone you've seen here before: BabyBenjieBoy. He did a Q&A for the blog back in October of 2016. Today he's coming in with an update, and a plug for his YouTube channel - check it out! Thanks Benjamin! 

Want to do a Q&A (or a Q&A update) for my blog? Email me! 18+

Q&A Update with Babybenjieboy

Name/Nick: Benjamin/Babybenjieboy  

Age: 27/ 1& half  

City/State/Country: Lancaster Pennsylvania United States of America  

AB/DL/BabyFur/Other? Abdl 

 Other Kinks/Fetishes: diaper bondage   

You first completed a Q&A in 2016. What's - ahem - changed, with you, since then?   

A lot has changed with me from being out and abdl model for the plus-size community and also having a YouTube channel for the abdl community and also so we guess picking at age play BDSM and other local kink events about how it is to be ageplay and into the infantilism.    

Tell us about your experiences in the community since your last Abysitter.com submission, if any. Have you made any friends, attended any parties or conferences, or had any other experiences - online or in real life - that you'd like to share?   

Ever since my last interview questions with ABY sitter.com my life has took a little turn for the better now I'm more involved with the community that I was before and also get to meet a lot of new people and alot of cuties and also make a really enjoyable community experiences. Also meeting people who enjoying my abdl YouTube channel and my photo shoots when they see online and get to chat with them and how they enjoy seeing someone who's authentic and looks the way they do and to have someone that they can relate with.    

One of my blog readers likes to say that we are all searching for something. What are YOU searching for in the ABDL community - if anything? Are you looking for a daddy/mommy/sitter? Brothers or sisters? Certain experiences? Tell us what YOU are looking for, or hoping to find - diaper-related, of course - in this life... and be as vague or specific as you'd like to be.   

I'm still looking for a daddy or a mommy or a caregiver I just pause it for now. Wow I keep doing YouTube and modeling and guest speaking. Hopefully one day I will have a mommy or a daddy or a caregiver. At the end of the day I would just love to have someone to experience new things in life and to have our first everything. Like our first date our first food on first hug our first overalls new experience so we never have done before we met each other.    

What is the BEST thing about being a diaper boy, AB, DL, etc.?   

The best thing about being a diaper Boyd or an abdl is to regress to a mind state of relaxation should know there is a comfort zone or a comfort blanket that that can be a safe zone where I can completely let go of all my worries my insecurities An overall to feel young again to to feel free  

What do you think the biggest problem/s or issue/s facing the ABDL community are?   

I feel like one of the biggest issues that we face in the abdl age play community is the discrimination of color of race of ethnicity also by looks the weight of people in the community the gender of people in the community the sexual orientation and I feel like us as a community should be a whole than a separation.  Cuz at the end of the day we should have each other's backs instead of turning it against each other. and that's one of the reasons why I model for this photo agency cuss words trying to spread acceptance of color weight gender orientation and break down the barriers that lately over the years has been made.    

If you could create one thing that would help the ABDL community in some way, what would it be?   

Well again I have an abdl YouTube channel where I talk about serious things in the community also a little bit parity also some fun things that's happening in the community and spread awareness but if I could do something else for the community and with the community I would like to make an outreach program for anyone who is suffering with depression or loneliness or just overall sadness I would like to make a program or a video thing that people can talk with other people which it sounds like an app but it will be like a video chat so whenever you feel lonely and have some time with someone else should be there in to listen to you and to guide you and just overall to just have a program that you can use and not feel so alone.    

Please tell us anything else you'd like to share... anything at all, sky's the limit!  

I want to say thank you for this interview this is an amazing day by abysitter.com your incredible and just overall outstanding and also please make sure to check out my YouTube channel here is the link and make sure to follow abysitter.com.    

Be sure to check out his YouTube! 

Want to do a Q&A for my blog?

Email me: abysitter@gmail.com

and put "Q&A" 

(or, if you've done one before, "Q&A Update") 

in the subject...

I'll reply with the questions! 

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Do A Q&A!

CLICK TO VISIT WHYABDL.COM/QA

I'm looking for

ABDLs

interested in sharing

their story

with the community.

Answer my Q&A questions

for the blog project,

whyABDL.com/qa.

Interested? Email me

(abysitter@gmail.com)

and put "Q&A"

in the subject;

I'll reply

with the questions.

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Q&A With CrinklyConnor

[CWIS'S NOTE] Up today we have a Q&A from someone new to the blog: CrinklyConnor. You may know him from his Twitter account - and he's also on Telegram. I met him at CAPCON last year, and he seemed like a chill kid. Today he shares some info about his ABDL side via a Q&A. Thanks, Connor! 

Want to do a Q&A for my blog? Email abysitter@gmail.com with "Q&A" in the subject; I'll reply with the questions. 18+ 

Q&A With CrinklyConnor

Name/Nick: Connor AKA CrinklyConnor 

Age: 23 

City/State/Country: Wichita, Kansas, USA 

AB/DL/BabyFur/Other?: Both AB as well as Babyfur. Mostly an AB.  

When did you first realize you were ABDL?:  

I realized I was an AB, or what could’ve been considered a TB around the age of 11. I realized there was a community around that time, however, in hindsight I do recall being into the babyish stuff even before then.

What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen?:  

I would take a diaper/pull-up (just one or two to avoid suspicion) from a friend’s house and wear them. I never went so far as to use them as they were not easy to get then.

Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted?:  

My parents are aware about not only my diapers, but also my entire AB side. I was going through some internal rough times, so I decided to tell them so I wouldn’t have to try and lie to them about the large packages I was going to be receiving (I’m a bad liar). I gave them a long document that explained everything, and even took inspiration from the Understanding Infantilism site. They reacted fairly well, and even make jokes about it sometimes. They are also aware of my daddy, and welcomed him to the family. They even come over for dinner sometimes, and our house is AB-ified. I’m pretty open about it.

Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain.:  

In the past, I have gone through this, but not as badly as most others. Mostly just throwing diapers away or other little toys.

How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating?:  

Everyone outside of my work life knows about my AB side and they’re all very supportive, and some are even very encouraging of it. It’s affected more positively in the end for being my true self.

For the little dunces, please tell us about what it was like to discover this fetish/lifestyle on the Internet. Please be at least 18 at the time of writing, but be specific about what age you discovered it, what sites helped you, and keep this part PG for obvious reasons:  

While I discovered the lifestyle at a much younger age (11) - I was still actively participating in forums and chats by the time I was 18, and still do. Being able to make new friends and have those friendships last a long time has really helped my self-confidence in the community. Connecting with people is what helped me.

Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know.:  

I am a babyfur for the sake of the art and community, but not really sure if it goes past that in that subset. I do wear diapers 24/7 out of choice, so wet and messy diapers are part of it, especially as a full on AB. I do also have a slight sissy side, but it’s not that prominent in my AB side.

What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you?:  

I would say 100% of the time I’m either wearing or thinking about diapers and such when masturbating. I’m not a very sexual person however, so this happens infrequently.

If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel.:  

I live the lifestyle very often when I’m not at work, so I bounce from being in adult mode and regressed pretty often and fairly quickly.   

Don't let yourself be limited by my questions. If you have anything else at all that you would like to say please feel free to say it here:  

Contact info: I do have a Telegram: @CrinklyConnor Twitter: @CrinklyConnor96.  I already have a daddy, and I’m not looking for anyone else as a partner or anything.

Sign Pics Needed...

I am working on a big project

that will curate

all of the best Q&A answers

and put them in one place.

I need sign pictures... 

each page will lead with a photo

of a member of our community

- hopefully diapered - 

holding a sign.

The sign should say

"ABDL Q&As"

or 

"#WHYABDL Q&A SERIES". 

Email me with any questions:

abysitter@gmail.com 

If you're able to help me out,
I sincerely appreciate it. 

Thank you for your support! 

18+

A Little Slow-mo

Just a throwback with a little slow-mo mixed in: pull-ups with Z on the Luvs Boat. Check out my YouTube Channel... will be updating it more in the near future. 

YouTube

HBD

HBD

This one is kinda a big one...

Q&A Answerers Wanted!

Seven years since the first Q&A was submitted

February 12, 2012. 

Since then 94 have been completed. 

Introduce yourself and share your ABDL story

with the community...

email me at abysitter@gmail.com

and put "Q&A" in the subject, 
I'll reply with the questions. 

18+

Q&A With Caleb

[CWIS'S NOTE] Up today I have a Q&A and some adorable pics from Caleb. You may know him from his Tumblr (diaperedcaleb.tumblr.com), Twitter (@diapercaleb), and ABDL Link/Mastrodon (@babycaleb). Thanks, Caleb!

Want to do a Q&A for my blog? Email me at abysitter@gmail.com. Put "Q&A" in the subject - I'll reply with the questions. 

Q&A With Caleb

Name/Nick: Caleb (@diaperedcaleb) 

Age: 22  

City/State/Country: Colorado Springs, Co United States  

AB/DL/BabyFur/Other?: DL     

When did you first realize you were ABDL?       

I first began to realize I was into diapers at a pretty early stage in life. I would say about 7 or 8. I didn’t really get into in and started discovering that part of who I was until I was 18 and in college.

What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen?       

As a kid, my family used to spend Sunday afternoon’s at our church. I would always sneak into the nursery and look at the diapers and even try them on. As I got a little older, and we left that church, I didn’t “Indulge” myself for a while. I was about 13 when I got sneaky enough to take one from the nursery during a youth group night and brought it home for the first time. It was also the first time that I got to use the diaper as well, even though it was a little small for me.

Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted?       

No, my parents don’t not know and I do not want to find out how they would respond haha. However, one of my sisters does know. We were having a conversation about kinks, I know it’s a weird conversation between brother and sister, but hey, we are pretty close. It was pretty awkward telling her at first, but she seemed unfazed by it. She was cool about it and we have talked a little about it since then, mostly asking question as she is exploring her own little space.

Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain.       

I would say yes, but not really into great excess. I have felt shame about being ABDL, as I’m sure most of us have, comes with the territory I guess. It’s hard to separate my past from this. The thoughts of “oh, is this because of the trauma I have faced throughout my young life, or is this much simpler than that” are always there when I do participate. After a few years, and with some ABDL friends, I have begun to accept that even I am ABDL, and the reasons don’t matter how I got here, just enjoy the moment.     

How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating? Married life? Parenting?       

As a whole, my social life hasn’t been affected. Would have to have one in the first place to be and sort of effect haha. On the dating side of my life, I guess I do tend to search more for those that might be ok with myself being ABDL and being ok with dating them. I have only ever told one partner and it went ok I guess. We didn’t get to talk about it much before the relationship ended shortly thereafter.

Some experts believe that we become the way we are because of traumas experienced at an early age, including abuse and/or neglect. Do your life experiences bear this out?        

As stated earlier, I would say that my past traumas have influenced my mental state in the here and now. I would say that everyone is this way. But I think of it as going back to a time when I was last truly happy, not only with myself but with my surroundings. Beyond that though, I think I would be ABDL with or without those traumas.    

For the little dunces, please tell us about what it was like to discover this fetish/lifestyle on the Internet. Please be at least 18 at the time of writing, but be specific about what age you discovered it, what sites helped you, and keep this part PG for obvious reasons.       

I was so excited to learn that I was not the only one out there that felt the same way that I do. I don’t remember the exact day, I believe I was 17, but when I stumbled onto tumblr, my searching began.

Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know.       

To be honest, I haven’t been able to delve very far into the community for myself, so I’m not sure.

What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you?       

I use tumblr a lot for my “me time’ where I follow a lot of diaper boys, so I would say a good portion of that by myself. With a partner, it’s not necessary but definitely very fun. I wouldn’t say it has caused any trouble.

If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel.       

I wouldn’t say I’m totally into age regression, but I’m totally ok with it. There are times when I do regress by myself: however, it’s not deep regression. Whenever I watch old cartoons or listen to veggietales, I get super into my little side. 

Be sure to follow Caleb online:

Tumblr: diaperedcaleb.tumblr.com

Twitter: @diapercaleb 

Abdlink.com: @babycaleb

Want to do a Q&A for my blog? 

Email me:

abysitter@gmail.com

Put "Q&A" in the subject...

I'll reply with the Q&A questions! 

Q&A With TeddyNhislittle

Q&A With TeddyNhislittle

Name/Nick: TeddyNhislittle
Age: 22/4
City/State/Country: Chicago/IL /USA
AB/DL/BabyFur/Other? AB/DL and switch


When did you first realize you were ABDL?

Honestly it's kinda always been there I've always had this childlike nature when by myself  be I would say I fully learned about what the abdl culture and got into it when I was 18

What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen?

I was a bedwetter as a kid on and off then middle school came around and made things worse. Eventually I bough myself diapers/ goodnites to try to wake up with a dry bed


Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted?

My parents weren't very support of my bedwetting called it being lazy sadly and never did the research about it being a medical condition. So I felt like I could never they'll them about my AB/DL side and don't think it would be right to tell them at this point.


Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain.

That I have and its something that was super hard to overcome. Since I im a bedwetter I already felt shame over that be I was also  forced to grow up a bit quick since my parents are always working and I had to be the one to look after my younger sibling. Being the older sibling made my shame greater and I started purging everything and eventually binge and hating what I was doing I felt like a freak ,then after starting on tumblr and fetlife and taking to so many kind people I was able to overcome my shame and stop.

For collegebabies/DLs, did this interest affect your college experiences? If so, how?

Being in college and being and AB/DL  can be hard to find that balance. I almost ranked my first semester because I couldn't find a balance and always stressing out because I could find time to be little and wear. thankfully I was able to find a good balance. I'll wear a lot to classes/ lectures and brings spare or two helps me destress and relax in college so I don't overload myself with my workload. I'll wear the Abu hats to class as well in the hopes some in the community knows what it is!


How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating? Married life? Parenting?

Dating has been a bit of a challenge in some sense but at the same time I've I've never went out of my way to find someone. I am single tho and looking for a female little or switch, but like I said I'm just letting the chips fall where they may.


Some experts believe that we become the way we are because of traumas experienced at an early age, including abuse and/or neglect. Do your life experiences bear this out?

Yes for me it does  , since not having supportive parents when I was younger and being mocked and shamed by other i feel pushed me further into this lifestyle along with making me more of a shy and reserved person as it ties heavily into my little personality. Of course this isn't the case for everyone.

For the little dunces, please tell us about what it was like to discover this fetish/lifestyle on the Internet. Please be at least 18 at the time of writing, but be specific about what age you discovered it, what sites helped you, and keep this part PG for obvious reasons.

It was amazing , nerve racking , and relieving at the same Time finding out and learning that there were others just like me. I'm sure everyone can relate. This community is weird for me as it's one where I've always felt so alone but at the same time so welcome in a community at the same time. I  remember I believe foxtailstimes and abdlstoryforum at at and always reading stuff there at 18.


Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know.

Diaper discipline has always interested me tbh. While I'm not a babyfur/diaper fur I do enjoy the art of the community like babystar and Colten to name a couple.


What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you?

I'd say I'm 50/50 sexual activity can happen without diapers but it take a bit longer to finish and I find it more fun with them included.

If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel.

While I am a switch 50/50 between my abdl/little side and my daddy side I tend to show my littles idea far more on social Media.As fort the regression aspect I'd say it's just all about relaxing and being able to enjoy the time I never got to have as a kid. I'll like to Color but instead of children's coloring books I have an overwatch one , instead of watching some children cartoons I'll watch some light hearted anime.  I'd say my little said is between 4-5 and just hasn't gotten potty training down xP

Want to do a Q&A?

Share your story with the community. 

Email me:

abysitter@gmail.com

Put "Q&A" in the subject, 

I'll reply with the questions. 

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Q&A With Jay Lew

Q&A  With Jay Lew

Name/Nick: Jay Lew
Age: 38, ageplay age unk.
City/State/Country: Cincinnati, OH area
AB/DL/BabyFur/Other? DL, but would like to get deeper into little headspace


When did you first realize you were ABDL? 

I've been fascinated with diapers since I was small. I only learned that this was a thing when I was 14 or so.


What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen? 

I tried using a few bathtowels as a makeshift diaper in the bathtub, but was caught by my parents. We never discussed it afterwards.


Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted? 

After the incident above, it was never brought up.


Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain. 

I've done this with my electronic porn collection before. Not with solid materials.


How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating? Married life? Parenting? 

I never dated. I'm pretty sure this was the reason why.


Some experts believe that we become the way we are because of traumas experienced at an early age, including abuse and/or neglect. Do your life experiences bear this out? 

I was never sexually abused (not that I remember), but I experienced systemic physical and emotional abuse in religious school, mostly because the other students and staff felt I was insufficiently observant. I was routinely singled out for bullying, and in 4th grade, another student tackled me and broke my leg.


For the little dunces, please tell us about what it was like to discover this fetish/lifestyle on the Internet. Please be at least 18 at the time of writing, but be specific about what age you discovered it, what sites helped you, and keep this part PG for obvious reasons. 

I remember finding Diaper Pail Friends and Wetset in the mid 90s and thinking, "There are others?!" I don't remember the names of any other sites I visited back then.


Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know. 

I honestly am not sure. It's only been in the last year that I've started seriously pursuing this lifestyle in real life. I have some interest in forced sissification, but haven't done anything in that vein yet.


What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you? 

I'd say it's about 50/50 with "conventional" activities and fantasies.


If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel. 

I am very curious about little headspace, and am jealous of the people who can find that bliss.    


Don't let yourself be limited by my questions. If you have anything else at all that you would like to say please feel free to say it here... 

It's only been in the last year that I've actually purchased diapers, wet, messed, played dress-up, experimented, and most importantly, gone to events with other ABDLs. On the one hand, it feels like a big relief to actually engage with this part of myself. On the other, I'm super paranoid about being discovered. There will be no photos.

Q&A With Shadow

[CWIS'S NOTE] Up today I have a Q&A with Shadow. You may know him from his Tumblr. He also entered my #Abysitter1mil Photo Contest - you can see his entry below, or here - and he won a ticket to the West Coast Jungle Gym. 

Want to do a Q&A and share your ABDL story with the community? Email me at abysitter@gmail.com and put "Q&A" in the subject, I'll reply with the Q&A questions. 18+

Q&A With Shadow

Name/Nick: Shadow 

Age: 28/2 

City/State/Country: Austin, TX 

AB/DL/BabyFur/Other? AB  

When did you first realize you were ABDL? 

I realized I was into the ABDL scene when I was very young. I remember when I was about 6 years old having a fascination with diapers. I took my first real plunge into it when I bought a pack of Goodnites at the age of 13. Then started to explore the internet to figure out if I was alone it it. When I was a kid, and playing house with people, I would always want to be the baby... There were just plenty of signs it was what I was.

What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen? 

I was home a lot a lot as a kid. My family worked a ton, and I had a lot of the house to myself outside of school. Besides having very few friends, I spent a lot of time at home alone. So, I was sneaky and went to the store and bought some Goodnites and hid them in my room. 

Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted? 

I remember my dad finding a pack of diapers when I was 14. He absolutely freaked out and sent me to a physiologist. From then on he would do random room checks, which just meant I had to get better at hiding them. I remember hiding them behind the speaker of a sub-woofer in my room. 

Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain. 

I’ve never really had a purge cycle. I’ve always been into diapers and knew it wasn’t going to go away. Though I have thought about giving it all up, I have never gone that far.

How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating? 

It was weird when I was with my first long term boyfriend... he was very vanilla and not so into kink or fetish stuff, so I seldom ever brought any of it up. After he broke up with me, I decided I was going to me more open about it. I’ve told most of my friends and they have all been so amazing about it. They all basically have said “awww that’s so cute!” Or “ you do whatever makes you happy! That’s really no big deal”.

Some experts believe that we become the way we are because of traumas experienced at an early age, including abuse and/or neglect. Do your life experiences bear this out? 

I will say, I had an amazingly hard life as a child. I was born in a prison because both my mom and dad were arrested for running a meth lab. I was then sent to live with my grandma. I was with her until I was about 5, when my dad got out and came to live with us. I didn’t meet my mom until I was 9 years old. And she told me she didn’t want me to live with her because she couldn’t deal with me and my brother both. I was the loser and outcast at school and didn’t have any friends until high school, so I had to grow up quick and be on my own. I never felt like I was loved, cared for, or had family. Entirely probably that’s why I want to be a baby and nurtured and feel like I’m loved.

Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know. 

I’m kinda exploratory in all of it. I am definitely into wearing 24/7 and wetting/messing. I have had some fun and enjoy being a sissy sometimes, and love being forced to wear and use them. I enjoy just learning new things and trying different things. Very open to life.  

What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you? 

I would say around 80% involves diapers. Whether with someone, or by myself. And even if I’m not wearing, I’m thinking about them. I will say, there have been several encounters with other guys that didn’t know about my interests in diapers, that I have kinda started thinking about diaper stuff with the guy to get things moving along... I do think that a future partner would absolutely need to indulge me in the fetish side of it, if not the entire lifestyle.  

If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel. 

I do love to regress down to my little age. I like to watch cartoons, I like to play with legos. I will get cereal and sit it on the bed scattered around and eat them while watching tv. In normal life, I’m a very loud and bouncy person, but when I regress, I get very shy and kind of quiet.    

Don't let yourself be limited by my questions. If you have anything else at all that you would like to say please feel free to say it here: 

I want people to know more about the ABDL world. And just to preface... It’s really hard to categorize everyone into this but this has just been my experience thus far.  I’m just gonna give some bio about myself. Now, I’m a larger guy... I’m 6’4” and weigh about 240. Am I obese? Nah, just a bigger guy. I wear large diapers typically, and I do fit in mediums. Just like the feel of large diapers more. I’m super self-conscious about my stature and have stopped myself from meeting people because I’m nervous I’m not gonna be good enough. There have been two people I’ve come across in my life that upon meeting them, they have said “oh... your pictures must be older... you look, a lot bigger...” and other things of that nature. I will say it’s extremely hard to be in the position I’m in. I want to feel little, and be little, and I’m just not. I know there is a stigma in the community that puts the thinner and smaller people kind of on a pedestal. And though I have accepted what I am, and have met some amazing people that accept me for me, and even have made me feel small... it is still hard to navigate the and find what I’m looking for.  Just know this... We are all deserving of love, and we all deserve to find that person that makes you feel how you want to feel. Don’t ever give up on what you dream to do, and know that there are people in the world that will love you unconditionally. Whatever you look for, and whatever you need, don’t ever give up on that dream. 

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Q&A With Sdkboi

Q&A with Sdkboi

Name/Nick: Sdkboi
Age: 24
City/State/Country: Destin, Florida , USA
AB/DL/BabyFur/Other? Abdl and pup.  

When did you first realize you were ABDL? 

I’d say the first time I realized that I was abdl was when I was about 12. I had just grown out of wetting the bed and it made me realize I really liked diapers. From there I found this site called deekers diaper boys or something of that sort. I don’t remember as this site is long gone. I wrote a few stories of myself on there. And found out that there was a whole lot more diaper people out there and maybe I wasn’t just some weird little boy who liked diapers. That and the fact that wearing a diaper even just the scent could give me an instant stiffy. I never really identified as an abdl until later in my life. 

What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen?  

The earliest memory I have of this is stealing them from my neighbor because they had younger kids who were 6-7 when I was 12-13. I even went as far as digging a whole in my back yard and burying them in what I thought was a sealed container.it wasn’t 😂. At one point I remember stealing diapers from the local grocery store because they didn’t have very good surveillance. I would take a couple and stuff them between my shirt and waistband. As a kid this was perhaps the worst thing I ever did.   

Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted? 

I was around maybe 16 or so and and I came home from work one day and my mom had them on the table. So she asked me why I had them and I told her it was because I was still bed wetting. She didn’t seem like she agreed because she thought I was using them to sniff aerosols or something. I never did know what she truly thought. So later on I was about 20 and I came home from work and I saw my diapers were in the trash. I had a used one in a bag in my closet I meant to throw away but forgot. She asked me and I simply told her that I liked to wear them to bed. She agreed and kinda shrug it off. Never had to deal with my dad finding out that would have been horrible.

Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain. 

I think at some point or another all of us have gone through this. Or atleast the people who grew up without social media. The internet let a lot of us know that it wasn’t just me who was like this and that maybe it was okay. . I remember growing up I had just bought a pack of goodnites. So of course I went home soaked it  and as soon as I did I suddenly just felt disgusted with how I felt about it so I grabbed all of my goodnites and threw them all away. Little did I know I would regret that decision right after trash day. 

For collegebabies/DLs, did this interest affect your college experiences? If so, how?  

Unfortunately I didn’t attend college. I had to work at a young age to provide for myself.

How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating? Married life? Parenting? 

Horribly. Then again I haven’t had many relationships so it’s not much to judge off of. But the people I did choose to share with ended up outing me to a lot of people which led to me moving across the country. Since then I’ve found me a wonderful guy who accepts me for me and I will forever love him for being who he is and embracing every aspect of our lives together.

Some experts believe that we become the way we are because of traumas experienced at an early age, including abuse and/or neglect. Do your life experiences bear this out? 

I would say yes absolutely.Some of these traumas I still have to deal with as memories and some days it’s absolutely unbearable but we find ways to cope and it makes it a “little” better.  There are many times in the past that I remember having horrible experiences that have led me to become the boy I am today. Even as I got older there were some hardships that I went through that I would say without diapers I don’t know how I would have coped.

For the little dunces, please tell us about what it was like to discover this fetish/lifestyle on the Internet. Please be at least 18 at the time of writing, but be specific about what age you discovered it, what sites helped you, and keep this part PG for obvious reasons. 

The discovery of deeker diaper boys which would later become a different website which I don’t remember the name of was absolutely critical to me embracing the lifestyle of being an abdl. That was at about age 12 I’d say. Along the same time Backstreet Boys were a big thing. From there it expanded and I found MySpace which back in the day was the first huge social media platform for diaper boys like I was. Around 16 or 17 I started with craigslist trying to find other boys into what I was but that didn’t work to well.  I was outed to everyone at my high school  and I moved away to keep from the embarrassment. At age 18 or so I got my first phone with the internet and apps. With that came Grindr and a number of gay dating/fetish apps. I found plenty of guys into what I was into but how would I find the right person who I could trust.

Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know.   

I’m into a lot of different kinks and lifestyles. But for whatever reason I never really got into messing my diapers. It just didn’t do anything for me and the cleanup is unbareable to me. But I’m into pup play and leather. Bdsm. And lots of other things.

What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you? 

I would say all activities have to incorporate diapers for me other then when me and my partner are making love. I reserve that time for him without diapers. Any other time I almost have to have a diaper on that’s wet and soggy for me to be able to make stickies.  It has caused some problems in the past and even ended a 2 year relationship. But after that I was able to realize if I’m not doing what I want to get off sexually then why do it at all? 

If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel.  

Age regression is something that I recently got into within the last 3-4 years. For me age regression is a way of escaping the big world and just enjoying life for what it is and embracing all of the wonderful things that are on this earth from a different viewpoint. About 9 months ago a guy walked into my life and swept me off my feet. He’s a member of the kink community and when I expressed what I was into. He took it upon himself to read about it and do everything he could to help me get into the age regression aspect. Now there are times where as soon as I walk into his house I regress instantly. I love my daddy for everything he has and continues to do.    

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I’ve always been one who didn’t know how to express himself to other people without it being weird. I hope by me doing this it will help people understand who I am and why I am the way I am today. I will forever be grateful for some of the people in the community that have empowered me to be who I am. If anyone ever has any questions at all they can feel free to dm me on Instagram tumblr. I will always respond and try to be as friendly as I can be to anyone who want to talk. I am happy to be a part of a community of people who embrace each other for being who they are.  Thank you for allowing me to share my story.  And thank you to everyone who is apart of the community.