Up today, I have a Q&A and some great pics from Baby Mickey. You may remember Mickey from pictures he contributed earlier this year. Today we get to know a lot more about him. Check out his intro and, if you have any thoughts, don't keep them to yourself: leave a comment or hit him up with an email.
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Q&A With Baby Mickey
Name/Nick: Michael/Baby Mickey
Age: 25/3-4
City/State/Country: Oregon/USA
AB/DL/BabyFur/Other? AB/DL
The questions are:
• When did you first realize you were ABDL?
When I first realized that I liked diapers I didn't know what ABDL was or that it even existed. I don't really remember being in diapers but I remember when I wore pull-ups and how much I loved them. Then I got potty-trained :( and there went my nice comfy padding. I then remember when I was about 6 or 7 I was at a babysitters who watched several kids of different ages. I remember looking at the kids and wishing I knew how their diapers felt. I was sad that I didn't remember anymore. And then I would look at the kids who were younger then me and think how lucky they were that they had been out of diapers for less time then me and how I wish I were them since then maybe I could remember what a diaper felt like. When I was 10 my mom and I went to stay for a weekend at her Aunt's house in southern Oregon. My great-aunt and her husband had built this awesome house that was like a duplex but instead of being side by side one family was on the ground floor and one family was on the top floor. My great-aunt and uncle were on the bottom floor and their son and his family were on the top. My mom's cousin and his wife had two sons, one who was 8 at the time, and the other was 5. The 8 year old, we'll call him Bob, wet the bed so his parents had him in Goodnites. We'll we had a slumber-party in Bob's room that night and I found out about them. I thought this was the coolest thing since I had always wanted to wear diapers again. I started asking him about them and he gave me one. We both went to bed that night wearing them. When we got up in the morning I was wet, I couldn't believe it and was actually a little scared at first. We both decided that we were going to keep our Goodnites on all day and even added a couple more to what we were already wearing. We decided we were going to keep them all day and just pee in them whenever we had to go and see who had the most wet one at the end of the day. I ended up getting sick that night so we never got to find out. I still wonder sometimes if he ever turned out to be an AB or DL or if he grew out of it. This was the last time for a few years I would think about diapers. When I was about 14 I thought about diapers again and decided to put on 5 or 6 pairs of my tighty-whities and stand in the shower. I stuffed a bunch of toilet paper in them and peed. I had been holding it in all day so the undies definitely didn't hold near enough. I still didn't know about ABs or DLs or anything of the like. It wasn't until I was 16 that out of thin air I decided to start googling diapers. I used several different search terms, non of which do I remember now, and eventually came upon DPF. At this point I knew I was a DL and it has all been great from there. I bought my first package of Goodnites a week later.
• What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen?
Sadly I didn't grow up with any younger siblings or even cousins that I could steal diapers from once I realized what was going on. I started buying Goodnites as often as I could. I was so nervous the first time I went in to buy them. I drove down to the local Wallgreens in my mom's car and I was shacking so bad. I was so worried that someone would see me that I knew or that they would ask questions at the register or even think they were for me. I must have spent 30 minutes going up and down the isle eyeing them as I would pass. I finally got up the courage to grab a package and go to the register. I checked out quickly and threw them in the trunk. My mom almost never used her car so I left them in the trunk until my parents went to bed and went out to the car saying I left a school book in the car. I became even more adventurous as time went on and even bought a package of Depends in front of my best friend who still doesn't even know I wear. I told her I was buying them as a gag gift for my step-dad.
• Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted?
My parents (mom and step-dad) don't know I wear and probably never will. They are to close-minded and judgmental for me to even consider telling them. My father knows and didn't care at all. Then again I hadn't met him till I was 21 and by that point had started having some issues with my bladder so I just told him that it was for medical. I did have to tell my aunt one time as I needed to go to the store to purchase more and needed a ride to the store. I was visiting my father in Tennessee and didn't have my rental car anymore. She didn't care at all, evidently my family has a history of weak bladder.
• Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain.
I have delt with it sadly, but have only gotten rid of maybe $100 worth of diapers and baby stuff over about 9 ½ years so I would say it hasn't been to bad. Usually if I started feeling guilty about my wearing I would just stop and pack up my diapers and baby stuff and pull them out again when I had gotten over my guilty feelings. I haven't gone through that in a long time as I have finally come to terms with who and what I am.
• For collegebabies/DLs, did this interest affect your college experiences? If so, how?
I'm in college now and it hasn't effected anything at all for me. I'm ok with my diapers now and consider them nothing more then just my underwear. Amazingly comfortable and absorbent, but still my underwear. I'm worn to school and don't ever have any problems with it. I even wore my Goodnites from time to time to high school and even to work a few times.
• How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating? Married life? Parenting?
It use to effect things for me like nothing else. I never wanted anyone to know as I always thought there was something wrong with me. I never told anyone until I got engaged at one point and I thought she needed to know. She was perfectly cool with it and even started to become my mommy. Things were great until we broke up (non-AB/DL related reasons). Then I was back to being on my own again to do my baby things. I went from having my diapers in a drawer to hiding them deep in my closet again. I never tried to date anyone in the AB/DL world as there never seemed to be anyone around me. At one point though I became ok with myself enough to admit I needed them, this was ok, and that it didn't matter what others thought. I worked as a flight attendant for a few years and would wear while wearing (who wants to use an airplane bathroom) and would carry a bunch with me in my bag for layovers. Several years later I got engaged again and I knew I had to tell her. I was so afraid of what she might say but I knew I needed to tell her. She was surprisingly cool with it and even told her mom. Which scared me since I didn't know what to expect. Her mom didn't care at all and has actually helped me in a few ways. My now mother-in-law has actually purchased diapers for me a few times when money was short, and is even helping me make a onesie. I'm hoping to open my own online AB clothing store and my mother-in-law is helping me with that as well. My wife has become my mommy, and even expanded a bit into being a sister for Baby Mickey though she doesn't wear at all. Overall things have definitely gotten to be very good. We now have a 6 ½ month old son who we keep this from completely. Though sometimes when we buy something new for our son, Baby Mickey gets jealous and we have to buy two... lol.
• Some experts believe that we become the way we are because of traumas experienced at an early age, including abuse and/or neglect. Do your life experiences bear this out?
I was never neglected when I was growing up, though my step-dad was very abusive from the age of 14 on. I was sadly though molested when I was five and maybe that has something to do with this but I don't know in all honesty.
• For the little dunces, please tell us about what it was like to discover this fetish/lifestyle on the Internet. Please be at least 18 at the time of writing, but be specific about what age you discovered it, what sites helped you, and keep this part PG for obvious reasons.
My first encounter with the AB/DL community online was through DPF. I didn't really get to involved with it as I think I caught it towards the tail end of it's existence but I did talk to a couple people on there. I then found daily diapers and sortly after ABY. I was perfectly content with ABY but I kept seeing people ask if I was on RUP. I had no idea what RUP was so I googled it and decided to put myself on there (it was completely different then it is now). I still liked ABY more but when that went down I moved over to RUP and have been there through the rest of the conversions. Now I have profiles on RUP, ABDLC, Diaper-Bois, DL-Boy, Diaperbook, Diaperspace and even created a diaper facebook profile until that got deleted by facebook. I only maintain RUP, ABDLC, and Diaper-Bois though.
• Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know.
I really have never moved into other subsets though I have always wondered about babyfurs. I do wet all the time, and mess on occasion, but I don't really consider that a subset as that's what diapers are for right?!
• What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you?
It has changed overtime but I would say now it's about 40% with diapers. There was a period of time that I had to masturbate every time I changed my diaper. I don't really have time for that anymore.
• If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel.
I do get into the regression side of things. I have a persona that is between the ages of 3-4 and he needs his mommy. He talks baby talk, uses a bottle, has a collection of pacifiers, likes baby print diapers, wears footed pjs and onesies. It's awesome to be Baby Mickey sometimes and I really enjoy it. There isn't really a specific time that I move into that frame of mind, it just depends on my mood and such. I wouldn't change my regression habits for anything.
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