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I did a survey in 2011 and tried to find out, among other things, the demographics behind my blog.
Who my readers are.
Where they come from.
What they're into.
Why they come to Abysitter.com.
And, among other facts, how old they are.
What I found surprised me.
More than 100 of you responded.
44% of you were college aged.
Only 23% of you were over 30.
None of you were under 18 (as I'd hoped would be the case), or older than 65 (which surprised me).
My readership - or at least my readership that takes surveys - was fairly young.
I wondered what had happened to all of the older ABDLs out there.
Had they not gravitated toward the internet?
Did they not read my blog?
Or did they just not take surveys?
I wasn't sure.
I came into our fetish before there was a real "community."
The internet actually existed before I started college - but I hadn't discovered it yet.
In my first year of college, almost nobody had it.
In year two, my college made it available to all students. And I got my first computer.
Still, at home I had access to some cheap, dumbed-down version of the internet. All text, no pictures.
At the beginning of the next year I discovered my college's computer lab - complete with the newest computers, and access to the internet and printers.
Shortly thereafter, I discovered search engines.
Like many of you, on a whim I began searching for terms like "diaper".
And I was stunned by what I found.
Diaper fetish has existed for ages. If I understand the reasons behind our love for diapers correctly, I'm quite certain it's existed since a few years after the first babies ever to wear diapers were taken out of them. That would be around the 1890s, if my knowledge of diaper history is correct. I picture World War I and II veterans hiding cloth diapers in the trenches, and young people throughout the decades discovering their love for diapers the same way we did.
Except, for many years, young people with a longing desire to be returned to diapers felt like most of us did growing up: weird... different... sick.
They could have no way of knowing how common their feelings for diapers are. Today we know that there are literally thousands of people who identify as AB, DL, or some variant of the above. But back then, it's likely that every single one of the people into diapers thought that they were totally alone.
In the decades before the internet was becoming commonplace our community was beginning to take shape. At some point a man named "Tommy" started an organization called DPF - Diaper Pail Fraternity. It consisted of a newsletter that was mailed to members, and a personals system that allowed members to write to each other; the letters would be mailed from DPF headquarters and, if a connection was made, members would make the jump to an actual phone call. (Makes Skyping on a moment's notice seem pretty fucking radical, right?) It was a different world.
Members would find out about DPF by reading ads placed in sex magazines and other places. You younger ABDLs probably remember the first time you discovered a diaper website online, right? Our older generation has similar memories - of the day they found an ad for DPF.
Eventually DPF began to get a bad rap after an article appeared in a national magazine - I think it was Penthouse - about one of its members driving around in a van making children play the "poop smashing game." Yeah, thanks asshole. The individual had some sort of bedwetting clinic in his van, and he managed to convince shitty parents to allow him to treat their children. He wasn't a doctor or anything - just a good judge of really stupid parents. He managed to find quite a few, and when he was finally arrested the police would find many pictures of diapered children in his van.
This was the way that I discovered we had a community: my best friend in high school (see previous blog entries) left a copy of this magazine in my car and told me to read it.
Part of the reason I'm so irritated by the members of our community who blur the lines of age appropriateness is because my first discovery of our community was such a negative one. I was embarrassed to think that my friend might think that I was on the verge of opening my own bedwetting clinic. WTF, asshole.
Anyway, Diaper Pail Fraternity became Diaper Pail Friends, and soon went online. DPF.com was the place to be for adult babies. It provided stories you could buy (they'd ship and mail them to you) and, eventually, regression hypnosis tapes and even ABDL clothing and products.
It still gave members a place to meet, but it was crude as fuck. You'd search through a long list of members - you could input search terms by typing letters, like "D" for disposable and "P" for poopy diapers. It would bring up all of the members who were into what you were looking for, and you'd then scroll through to find your state, and then look for your city, age range, etc. Back then the internet was so new that a lot of members weren't on it yet, so you'd have two options: email, or mail. Some members were only contactable via the mail, others via mail, and others both.
I still remember getting mail in my mailbox from DLs. It was a weird, creepy, guilt-inducing feeling for me. Today I exchange dozens of emails a month, but hearing from an actual ABDL back then - wow. Weird feeling.
DPF.com's drawbacks included that it didn't have any pictures. They did eventually come out with something called BabyClub, where members could pay for a site that included pictures. (I still remember younger people begging me to let them borrow my BabyClub membership login info - and me having to tell them I wasn't a member. I was a starving college kid, wtf.)
Eventually, Dave Warren would start a website called Aby.com.
Aby.com wasn't a community website, at first. Many of you discovered it after it converted to a community site circa 2004. Before that, it was a site where you could find pictures. And, for those of us just coming into this fetish, it was a motherfucking godsend.
I remember the day I discovered it. I was in a computer lab at my college. I almost squirted in my pants. Picture after picture of guys in diapers. Picture Tumblr today. Aby.com was so primitive by those standards... just a page with links to other pages, and you'd click on the file name of the picture to see it. But for me, who'd drawn pictures of guys in diapers as a child because I'd never gotten to see any - I was in absolute ABDL heaven.
Many of the pictures were the kind of pictures you still find if you search for terms like "diaperboy" on Google. They were pictures of frat brothers in diapers. Halloween costumes with adults in diapers. People wearing diapers on a dare.
I remember wondering if these were actual ABDLs. If they were, it was hot. If they weren't, it was... well, fuck it... it was still hot.
Other pictures were obvious fakes. But with such a shortage of diaperboy pics, fakes were acceptable. There were pasties. Some were ridiculously awful. Others were very realistic. The Vincent VanGoo series of pasties, for example: the pictures I first fapped to. I would print pictures of VanGoo's pasties out on the public, shared printer - and just be sure that I was the first person to reach it. (Talk about an adrenaline rush). Then I'd take them home.
It all seems so ridiculous today...
In addition to diaper pictures, real and fake, and pasties, there was diaper artwork.
Some of it was so primitive it would be embarrassing to share it today. People would literally draw pictures of wet and messy diapers in Microsoft Paint and post them online. And, back then, that was considered... hot.
Other examples of artwork were amazingly realistic.
And that's where ABDaddyMike comes in.
Back in my early days of internet exploration I discovered ABDaddyMike's comic series, Diaper Daze. It was a comic series about a fraternity full of brothers who forced each other into diapers and engaged in ageplay. It was an era where it was so hard to find actual ageplay pictures online - most diaper pictures still included just hot guys in diapers. So seeing comics of guys in diapers, crying in cribs, confined to playpens, and eating baby food in high chairs - so hot.
I, of course, inserted myself into the scenes.
On my little days I was the one sitting in the playpen.
On my big days I was the one parading babies around campus.
It allowed me to fantasize about the ageplay scenarios I'd dreamed about, and actually see them in action.
Today we have YouTube, and XTube, and DiaperTube, and other video sites (and picture sites) for all of that.
But in the late 1990s and early 2000s we had comics. The Diaperdaze Comix, to be exact.
It was 1995 when Dave Warren created a special site for Daddy Mike's artwork, hosting it on Aby.com where people could buy copies. Mike would later create a website for his photos called Mikey's Nursery, later a Yahoo! group before it was closed by Yahoo! in the early 2000s.
I recently spotted one of the comics I'd loved so much as a college student on FetLife, and asked if I could share it with you. Mike agreed not only to let me share this one, but to begin digitizing some other examples of his artwork. You'll soon find them here, and
on his FetLife page, as well.
ABDaddyMike mentioned that one of his concerns is that, in today's world of diaper vidoes and pictures by the thousands on sites like FetLife and Tumblr, ABDL artwork may have lost its relevancy.
I still say it's hot.
And for anyone of you younger ABies who might scan across pieces like this looking for pictures to fap to, I just thought you should know your ABDL history.
Because a decade or two ago, when our community was just starting out online, these comix were the pictures to fap to.
Enjoy... and stay tuned for more...
PS - DPF.com is for sale. Asking price: $100,000. Who wants to resurrect it? And has a hundred grand to drop?
