[CWIS'S NOTE] Up today I've got a Q&A - and some really cute baby pictures - from Toddlerboicharlie. Charlie is a 19yo collegebaby in Charlotte. He has his own blog - www.collegediaperboy.blogspot.com - and he's looking for readers, and feedback!
Q&A With Toddlerboicharlie
Name/Nick: Charlie (Toddlerboicharlie)
Age: 19
City/State/Country: Charlotte, NC USA
AB/DL/BabyFur/Other? I would say that I am about 85% Adult Baby and 15% Diaper Lover
And now for the questions. Just delete or ignore any which do not apply to you.
The questions are:
• When did you first realize you were ABDL?
I first came to realize that I was an Adult Baby when I was around the age of 12. See I had been a bedwetter from the time that I was potty trained until the age of 10 or 11. During that time I wet the bed every single night and didn't have any real form of protection until I was around 6 or 7. My parents caved and bought me Goodnites to help me get a good nights sleep and to make the laundry less painful for them. Well about a year after I had stopped wetting, I started to realize that the commercials for baby diapers on the TV gave me funny feelings and that I really for some reason was intrigued by them. From that point being a child of my generation I went to the great know all source of information, the internet. I started to do searches on google with phrases like:
"Is it weird if a 12 year old wants to wear diapers?"
"Why does a pre-teen want to wear diapers?"
From there I found various sources about being a Teen baby and one of them was Deeker's Diaper page. Now I know this was not a great source of information in retrospect, but it was what I had to work with. From there things started to slowly build up from their, and I realized for the first time that I was a Teen Baby.
• What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen?
Well as a kid I was frightened to death of buying diapers and that fear really still existed until I was about 16 or 17 years old. Well from the ages of 12-14, I never really got my hands on a real diaper. At that time I had just made the transition from white briefs to boxer briefs so I had all my old "little kid" underwear that I didn't want to wear to school, because all the boys were boxers or boxer-briefs. So I would at night, steal a roll of paper towels from the kitchen and put on a pair of the briefs. I would line the entire thing with a think liner of paper towels to simulate a diaper. In the end it was wasteful and not very satisfying but got me through that part of growing up as a ABDL.
• Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted?
Well for this question I would defer to my blog because its a long and painful story that I really don't want to have to type out again or talk about any more then I need to.
• Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain.
Oh I have for sure, I would say that it is fair to say that I may be the king of all binge and purge cycles. Honestly since about the age of 13, I started to feel extreme guilt about my diaper side and would decide that I needed to separate this from my life. I would take whatever baby related things that I have and throw them out and then I would try to disconnect from any ABDL connections that I had online. This exact cycle has occurred to me pretty much every 6 months (If I was lucky I would last that long) from the age of 13-17. After that I had a big change in my life by meeting my daddy and he really helped me get through a lot of those feelings. I would be lying to you if I said that I am 100% secure in my diaper side and feel like I have a lot of self acceptance, but I strive one day to get to that point in my life.
• For collegebabies/DLs, did this interest affect your college experiences? If so, how?
Well as of this fall (fall of 2012) I have started my freshman year of college. Diapers have really gotten pushed on the back burner for me because its really difficult to hide them in a tiny room that you share with someone else. However, I also have a lot more freedom to explore my diaper side at the same time without having to worry about my family finding out about it again. So, I would say that so far my college experience as of recently has really helped me grow in my adult baby interests because I am starting to see that everyone has their thing and that this is just mine!
• How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating?
Well so far this fetish really hasn't impacted my dating life or social life too much. This mostly has to do with the fact that I am scared shitless of being exposed to my friends and family, and the implications that it could have. But my guess is that when I do eventually settle down that it will have to be with someone that can atleast allow me to wear every once in awhile without freaking out. I would not expect to end up dating and/or marrying another ABDL or Caregiver (Althought that would be the best), simply because I think that its an unrealistic goal and narrows down the fish in the sea to too few for my liking.
• Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know.
Well see I have a very limited actual real life experience in anything with the diaper community but I have adopted a policy for it. See I am someone that wants to try and experience things in order to be sure if I like them. So my policy is that I will try almost anything once!
Things that I am into for sure:
Wet and Messy Diapers
Adult Baby/Toddler
Diaper Dicipline
Light bondage
• What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you?
Well much to my dismay I am still a virgin and so my sexual activity with others...well is non-existent to current. But as for masturbation...well that is a whole other ball game right there. I do masturbate for sure and I would say that its safe to say that 85% of the time that I am, I am thinking about a diaper related scenario. Now I am not strictly interested in diaper related scenarios, and honestly my diaper interest are mostly non-sexual. But I have that wild teenage mind and spirit, so I tend to get a little excited and creative with it.
• If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel.
Well for me I am mostly focused around the regression fact of being an AB and so I do get into it. I have found that regression for me is the best way of stress relief and giving my self a sense of security in my life. Being in toddler mode just allows the stress to melt away and for me to spend a little bit of time just being a little boy with no worries or anxiety.
Don't let yourself be limited by my questions. If you have anything else at all that you would like to say please feel free to say it here:
Well I am always interested in getting to know others out their in the community and so feel free to message me on YIM or skype. I will add all my contact information on the end of this post so anyone interested can get into contact with me.
Also, something that I am doing for myself that I have found to be really helpful in self exploration and acceptance of my diaper side is my blog. I would really love if I could get some readers and some feed back on that as well!
YIM: Toddlerboicharlie
Skype: bbcharlie18
Fetlife: https://fetlife.com/users/1141758
Diaper-bois: http://www.diaper-bois.com/profiles/1585515
Email: Toddlerboicharlie@yahoo.com
