Up today I have a Q&A from Heisenberg. You saw his first set of pictures here a week ago, and today he's sent along some more, with a promise of more to come soon! He's also sharing his story with us today - take a minute to read it, because it's a good one. He actually has two Tumblr accounts - heisenberg544.tumblr.com and heisenbergdl.tumblr.com. Follow them both and hit him up!
Q&A With Heisenberg
Name: Heisenberg
Age: 27
From: New York
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When did you first realize you were ABDL?
I was definitely a late bloomer, sad to say i was about 22, ahh if only i had done so before then i feel like i missed out on something great now. For me it had a lot to do with the products in particular, i had tried wearing as early as 20 or 21 but those products were given to me due to stomach issues and they were not the best. So i moved on and did the best i could to get by without it but i kinda knew it was there and i had a stomach issue either way so wearing was gonna happen it was just a matter of when. A year or so later i was 22 and i turned to the internet, i might have at one point even just typed in “world's best adult diapers”, and to my surprise i got quite an earful, i mean how were there so many thoughts and opinions about this particular subject. So i ordered what id seen recommended the most and those were what became my choice products. When i got them i remember thinking how good could they be, there adult diapers… but that changed right away, i was wrapped in a soft comfy cloud that would never let go, in my most tender region, and it felt great, i was lucky enough at that point after a fair amount of research to have found the products i use to this day. Still i was a bit ashamed at first to relate it to anything sexual, this however… took no time at all, the anatomy was easy to work with needless to say. Id found what gave me a true release. My abdl life was off and only grew from here on out, and im glad it did.
What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen?
Now i genuinely dont have an answer for this but one thing i can say is that i wish i had discovered this side sooner than i did, i never really had any time before then where it even came to mind but if it had id probably have done the same as stated previously and that is, wear a diaper! I guess in a sense i just never had any exposure either that or i was really good at burying it deep down, either way today i know the truth: i belong in diapers, and i love to be diapered.
Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted?
My dad had passed by the time i had to start wearing but my mom… she honestly didn't really find out until about a year ago 5 or so years after i started wearing, even tho i needed it to help me live a normal life id been able to hide it until then and at that point i really just figured who cares if she finds out so she did from her own perspective one day when my shirt came up or something and she asked i said yes and that was that end of storey lucky me! With the type of person my mom is id really expected some objections but either she had already known or was just ok with it.
Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain.
Well i had times where it was easier and times where it was harder, it was a bit different though, the shame came from liking it, the regret came from the indulgence until eventually it all wore off and i realized i was just better off letting myself be myself. My mind and my body wanted this and who was i to deny myself of that. This made me feel good, id never had much of a sex life, id focused on so many other things, so when i did find what a good release it could give me, i gradually indulged. I turned to articles written on the internet to help with the acceptance, they all said things like well a diaper lover isnt hurting anyone by loving diapers, and wiki how had a lot of good stuff too on how this was just a life style many people enjoyed so with alot of help from the internet id gotten a ton of advice that over time helped me alot. I was basically already in diapers the part i took time with accepting was the masterbation in them and relating them to anything sexual at all.
How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating? Married life? Parenting?
i kinda found what i was looking for when i got diapered, i would love to have a diaper friend, someone i could wear with and maybe masterbate in my diaper around but its a hard type to find and honestly ive not had much of a dating life… a few high school flings and such of the opposite sex but i was always wanting more and i really found what i was looking for as i began diapering.
Some experts believe that we become the way we are because of traumas experienced at an early age, including abuse and/or neglect. Do your life experiences bear this out?
Abuse and neglect no. However i lost my father at 18 and i was very close to him, granted my diapering came after that i dont think the two were related. When i lost my father i began drinking heavily, and i did have an unnatural taste for alcohol during my teenage years, i drank a lot, i buried pain, honestly i would turn to the diapering to avoid the drinking, well indulging the diapering anyway, and it did in the end take the drinking binges under control to the point where i turn to indulging the diapers over the alcohol. So in a way the diapers helped me to quit drinking as odd as it is to think about.
Some people have pointed out their observation that a larger-than-average number of multiple birth babies (twins, etc.) rep the ABDL lifestyle. If you are one of these, please explain what effect, if any, you feel this may have had on your ABDLishness.
I do have a brother but it has not directly affected any of this in my opinion.
For the little dunces, please tell us about what it was like to discover this fetish/lifestyle on the Internet. Please be at least 18 at the time of writing, but be specific about what age you discovered it, what sites helped you, and keep this part PG for obvious reasons.
Well i did find almost all of this on the internet actually… yes all of it i found on the internet from my first diapers to my first blog about me in diapers, although im writing now at 27 since the beginning its all been web based and thank god ive been given that opportunity because it made the diapers and the experience that much better and the medical issue easier to live with so i thank my lucky stars for the internet my entire abdl career has benefited from it.
Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know.
My particular subset would be that of a dl diapers are my main interest, i do wet and mess and i do show that on my pages as appropriately as i can. For myself what does it for me as odd as it may sound to other abdl’s is a nice clean diaper around my waist thats when i get my particular enjoyment when masterbating. I think it has to do with the softness of it and the best part is not having to clean up afterwards, and then having a clean diaper to use as well. I am an open minded person, and wearing an adult diaper in itself is taboo but i can live with that. I recently started opening as many blogs as i could, so yeah theres a small chance someone i know could see me in a diaper one day but its really a small amount of search terms that would bring them to do so, they would have to be looking for things like this themselves, i dont fear it anymore. I put pics of me in only a diaper with my face and a smile i just learned not to care. There all pictures of me when im happy so thats how i want the world to know me, im just a guy wearing a diaper, so what.
What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you?
All of them, i guess in a sense it has caused me to not have sex but i have had the best experiences in my entire life in a diaper, i feel that it will continue on this way, but that certainly does not mean i wont meet someone one day who i will share this and have genuine loving sex with i look forward to that day and i think of it as a matter of time above all else. Problems… i wouldnt call it a problem, since when are toe curling orgasims from just rubbing the front of my diaper an issue!
If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel.
I like the way the diaper makes me look, i look great in nothing but a diaper and ive stuck to that and enjoyed myself in the process, so if you want to think of me as a little guy, im the type of little guy who strips down to the diaper every time!
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