Showing posts with label Guest: DiaperWhiz. Show all posts
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Monday, August 5, 2013

Guest Entry: DiaperWhiz

Up today I have an awesome guest entry from DiaperWhiz! DiaperWhiz has written guest entries here before, including a story (still trying to find the link for it), an essay on Tumblr, and a Q&A. In addition, he has his own Tumblr blog: Lilscruff.tumblr.com. Go check him out in all his cuteness.

By the way: DiaperWhiz is also a two-time Abysitter #ABDL Photo Contest winner. I've sprinkled in some of his contest entry pictures with this blog entry hehe...




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Guest Entry: DiaperWhiz
"End of College Days"
 
I went to undergrad in a very rural part of vermont. A small liberal art college with a large population of very attractive mountain men. unfortunately Vermont proved to not be the best location for picking up sexy gay dudes. But it was a fantastic place for young college co-eds to experience with their sexuality. Thank god for good ol college experimentation, without it, I might never have gotten laid. But even with the occasional straight lay, there still was no diaper play happening in my life. During that time I kept myself occupied wearing diapers to bed and occasionally to class. But I couldn't get the fantasy of diapering rural vermont boys out of my mind. I mean they already wore overalls most of the time, and with all that scruff I knew they would make the most adorable toddlers. hehehe  But I never got a chance to incorporate diapers, I always kept that part a secret. That is until one fateful night….
It was the week after classes but before graduation my senior year. I had just received 2 cases of M4s from a friend who was moving out of New England and needed to dispose of his stash quickly. Being a poor college student I gladly took him up on the offer. With all the extra padding around I was wearing quite frequently at the time, doubling up for bed and whatnot. I knew that I couldn't get through all the diapers before I myself had to move, but I sure as hell was trying! haha.

The university was throwing a big party at a bar the next town over. All the seniors were invited to have one last hour not he universitiy's tab. There are underclass men there to act as DDs and to make sure the seniors don't get to out of control.

The good thing about going to a small school is that you know EVERYONE. It makes group situations easy cause you can easily strike up a conversation because you have most likely had a class, played a sport or been to a party with whoever you are talking to. After some goofing around with my Frisbee teammates I saddled up to the bar for a drink when I noticed this boy sitting alone across the bar. He wasn't a senior, and though he was someone I recognized, I couldn't remember where we had met. I must  have been staring because he signaled me to come over.

I thought what the hell, this might be a good chance to flirt a little. I always liked having fun with the straight boys, knowing that it probably wasn't going anywhere, it allowed me to be much more loose and casual.

As I walked over to him a the bar I sized him up. He was short, about 5'5" but solid. He had a nice pair of arms from what I could through his tight fitting dress shirt. He had short hair that was just a little on the shaggy side, like so many of my Vermont boys like to wear it. He had a look about him the read rural. I don't know how to describe it, but I could easily picture him growing up in wife beaters and whitey tighteys on the couch watching TV. The kinda guy who was a little messy and a little dirty in that sexy man kinda way. His face was contorted in a wry smile that hugged the scruff peeking out from his otherwise baby face. A devilish light flickered behind his eyes as if he was always thinking something dirty.

I pulled up next to him and struck up a conversation. He seemed shorter when I finally pulled up close to him. His feet dangling over the edge of his seat, swaying back and forth like a little boy.

"What are you drinking?" I asked

"A Roy Rogers. Im not old enough to drink here." He replied sheepishly

"Oh a young one eh? Well that's what the party back in town is for right?", I laughed. Ha! A Roy Rogers I thought, this boy is a a little tyke isn't he?

"Have we met before?" I asked, "You looks so familiar."

"Yeah, I came to your birthday party, and I play soccer next to the frisbee fields. I've seen you out there before. The name is Calvin."


Now I remembered him. He was the shortest player on the soccer team but he could move fast. That explained why he looked so familiar. The soccer team shared field space with the frisbee team.  I've always had a thing for sports players. The mention of soccer let my drunken mind wonder to how this short little guy looked in his soccer uniform. Probably looks awesome looks cute in a jock strap I thought to myself, followed by the thought that I'd probably never get to see that. What a shame, I thought as I threw back the rest of my beer.
The whole time we are talking I get this really good vibe. He was clearly interested into talking to me so we sat and I drank a lot. After the party was over al the seniors had to wait for a school bus to come pick them up and take them back to campus. A few savvy seniors made arrangements with underclassmen DDs for rides, but I make no such plan. The idea of waiting for the slow ass bus to get back to campus was unacceptable. I finished my beer and got up to leave but Calvin stopped me and said:

"Do you want a ride? I brought the cargo van out here from campus but they said I can take it back. There is room for one more."

"Hell yes! Im totally coming with you!" I exclaimed.

We grabbed our stuff and hopped into the van and head back to campus. I was significantly drunk at this point and am feeling a little saucy with my newfound soccer boy.

"Thanks for the ride man. I really appreciate it." I said, thinking about all the trouble I was going to get into that night.

"No problem man. What are you getting into tonight." He aked. This kid, who I have met only briefly, wanted to tag along to the "grownup" party, how cute. But, what was in if for me?

"I dunno man I am probably gonna head back to town and drink some more. What about you?"

"I am ready to start drinking myself. I'm looking for the party."

"Awww so cute the lil boy wants to come play with the big boys." I mocked. He quickly shot me a look and stuck his tongue out laughing.

"You are more than welcome to tag along with me. if you want, I'll make sure you get into trouble." I teased

"What kind of trouble?" he asked curiously.

"You'll see." I said.

Now I should mention here that I did not have the intention of doing anything with this boy other than be flirty and to tease him. At this point I had no plan beyond getting back to town and drinking more. The alcohol was making me feel really high on my horse. I had been in this situation before. You get a chatty straight guy who laughs at all your jokes and give you good eye contact and attention at the bar, then wants to tag along for the night and drink and wax poetic with a seemingly wise sociology major. This was heading towards us having sex. I could just feel it. Now usually at this point I just sit back and coast and let the night play out without any work on my part. But this time was different. I don't know if it was the booze or the fact that I sensed he was kinda kinky, from no other information other than I had this vibe. And the fact that I was pretty confidant he was going to try and have sex with me later gave me the impression that he must be at least open minded. I steered the conversation towards kinky things. He asked me about being gay and I told him about how great it is and liberating and how we have the best kinds of sex because we can get kinky and I like that.

"Oh like Bondage?" he asked, trying to look knowledgeable.

"Oh so your familiar?" I said with one eyebrow raised, " Does your girlfriend tie you up at night?" A wry smile cut my lips.

"Hahaha. No, I don't have a girlfriend." Interesting, I thought to myself. "Yeah, I've never really done it but I have seen some stuff. There is all kinds of crazy stuff on the internet."

"True story" I laugh, "You don't even know the half of it."

"Oh really?" He asked, genuinely curious, "Like what?"

"Well, like there is a huge subculture in the gay world around sports gear. I bet you in your soccer outfit would drive em wild. They'd be stuffing dollar bills down your jockstrap at the club."

"nahhhhh." he laughs, "Really? Dudes find that hot? Its just what I wear every day, I mean Ill give you the jock strap does look good. Especially if you have a good body like mine." He throws up his right arm to do a flex pose.

"So modest!" I snorted playfully punching his arm.

He jokingly swatted me away, "Shut it! hahaha. no but really. Is that what you are into? Does my soccer outfit turn you on." He asks, with a tone of seduction in his voice.

"I'm not gonna lie, hahaaha, I bet you look slamming in a jockstrap. But no I have another kink." I kinda just blurted this out, which immediately regretted. I looked out the window of the van and wished that we were closer to home so I wouldn't have to elaborate.

"Go on" he said
Damn why did I open my big fat mouth.

"Tell me." He pressed on.

Shit it was now or never

"I dunno…" I hesitate.

"I promise I won't freak." I can almost see the curiosity dripping from his lips.

Fuck am I gonna or am I not gonna. For a split second I almost make something up.

Then I blurted it out.

"I like to wear diapers and put other guys in diapers."

He was silent for a second. It felt like an eternity.

Then he bust out laughing. "HAHAAHA, really dude?! thats some kinky shit." but I had piqued his interest. He asked me a whole line of questions. Where do you get them? They're not kid diapers? Adult Diapers? How often do I wear. Does anyone else know?

"Do you have any right now?" he asked as we pulled around the corner into the main part of town. This perked my ears up.

"I do back at my house. you wanna see one?" I asked devilishly.

"Yes." and with that my heart exploded in my chest. Here I was with a smoking hot, dirty little soccer player who wants to see my diaper stash. and isn't appalled that I wear diapers but rather intrigued. We went back to my apartment.  I brought Calvin upstairs to my room and uncovered a big plastic crate of M4s. He looked at it for a long time and said "Damn, that a lot of diapers." He wasn't wrong. Then he said something that I will never forget.

"So are you gonna put me in one or what?"

With that, my face fell off. I swear I literally had to pick it up off of the floor. Did I hear him right? Put him in one? Just a couple of hours ago I would have killed to see him in a jockstrap, never did I think I would get this boy into a diaper.

My look of shock turned into a look of kinky anticipation "Lay down." I commanded.

He started to fumble with his belt. I stopped him. "Let big bro do that."

I laid him down on the bed, my hands trembling. I pulled off his belt, and slowly slid down his jeans. He had killer legs. Strong legs. The kind you get from running and jumping. he was wearing a pair of BVD white briefs. The were well worn in, I could tell they were an old pair.  A little stained with urine and precum, his cock nestled softly inside, twitching at the movement of my hands. I pulled his shirt up a little to grab the waistband of his underwear and slid my hands across his solid washboard abs.

"You must work out a lot!" I said.

'Everyday." He responded, " I told you I have a good body." He stuck his tongue out again.

"Oh, cocky boy huh," I teased, "We'll see how confidant you are with a big diaper between your strong legs, you brat." That seemed to hush him up, and I continued with my process.

I stood over this boy, laying on my bed with his jeans around his ankles and his shirt pulled up high leaving his ever expanding cock waiting to be freed from those whitey tighties and put into a thick diaper. I pulled out an M4 and set it it beside him, Then I pulled out my baby powder.

"Baby Powder!" He started to protest.

"Hush!" I barked, "We don't want you to get chaffed do we?" I dragged my hands up his strong firm legs, over the top of his now hard penis. He let out an audible moan. Someone likes being the sub, I thought to myself. I pulled down his big boy underwear letting his cock spring out like a jack-in-the-box.

"Does this excite you? Being put back into diapers by an older wiser senior? Being put back where you belong." I was trying to sound cool and tough, but the truth is my voice was shaking and I couldn't believe what was happening. I tried not to let it show though.

"You diaper a lot of guys?" He asked, changing the subject.

"Actually, you're the first. So its new to both of us! Lift up." He lifted his tight butt and I slide the M4 right underneath him. It looked huge compared to his relative body size, but was a perfect fit over that rockhard stomach and beefy legs. I carefully powdered him and tapped him in. The sight of this was too much to bear. I helped him up and let him walk around the room a little.



Crinkle Crinkle

I watched him waddle around the room, looking at his new underwear. He kept looking at the front then looking at the back. He ran his hands across the front of his diaper, now barely concealing his erection. He grabbed his jeans and shimmied them up his legs. Halfway up he lost his balance and fell over on all fours. He looked up at me from the floor, his diapered butt puffed out in perfect form. His face began to fill with blush. He let his head drop in a kind of play shame, and then stood back up, cheeks as red as fire trucks.

He had trouble getting his tight jeans up and over the massive M4 but he was finally able to do it. He stood there looking at me with this helpless face, his pants unzipped and exposing a very thick diaper. The contrast between this very babyish attire and his athletic build was cute and it made him look all the more hilarious.

Crinkle Crinkle

"Im gonna bust out of these jeans! Do you think anyone will notice?"

"No," I lied. It was definitely noticeable.

As he zipped up his pants the M4 stuck out over the top of his waistband defiantly. It was very clear that he wasn't just wearing a diaper but it was a very big diaper. He pulled his sweatshirt down over his waistband in an effort to conceal his new evening wear, but the bulge around his crotch was a tell tale give away. His butt, which was already bubbly, now stuck out even farther and was ever further accentuated by his waddle. This was going to be fun.

I grabbed my things and began making for the exit.
"Aren't you gonna wear one?" He asked with fear in his voice.

For a second, I thought about sending him off into the world padded alone. Watching him uncomfortably waddle through the party on his way to the keg with the knowledge that he was wearing a very thick diaper alone in a room of college boys. I wanted him to feel that embarrassment and slight shame. But I decided to have a heart and padded myself up as well. Much to his relief.

As we began walking down Main street on the way to the boozed fueled party, I trailed Calvin by a few steps. Watching his over exaggerated bowlegged walk. seeing him struggle with the new found wealth of fluff stuffed into his 501 jeans. "Its hard to walk!" he complained,

"You'll get used to it." I laughed. So we continued, him waddling down the street, self consciously tugging at his sweatshirt to conceal top of his new underwear that was peeking out from the waistband of his jeans. As we approach the party he turned to me. I could see the outline of his trim body suddenly swallowed by his puffy pants. "You think anyone will notice?"
Nah," I said, hoping he wouldn't chicken out, "I wear all the time and no one can tell."

This seemed to appease him and soon we were up the steps and into the party. The party was kind of a blur. Lots of faces, lots of conversation. At one point I lost my little diaper boy in the crowd. After having a few drinks, and throughly soaking my own diaper. I see lil Calvin sat around a table in the living room play a card game. I pulled up a chair and join in. By this time, everyone has had a few drinks, is a little looser and just having a good old time. Calvin has a slight glaze over his blue eyes indicating that he too was having a good time. The self conscious athlete is no where to be seen. He had completely forgotten about the diaper, it seemed. As I watch him play, he hunches over his knees, throwing down cards and reaching for booze. Unbeknownst to him, every time he reaches forward his sweatshirt is pulled up a little. He was wearing a tight fitted flannel shirt that was now ridden up a quarter way up his back. The shirt left a space of white smooth flesh that would normally connect to the waistband of his pants on any other night, but tonight, that space is interrupted by a crinkly thick diaper exploding out his backside.

From behind anyone could see quite clearly the exposed M4 jutting out of his tight jeans. Even a quick glance by a drunken coed would confirm that this boy was wearing a diaper. I loved watching him expose his dirty little secret to the whole party, and I was kind of surprised that A) no one confronted him and B) that he genuinely didn't seem to care. He was too busy laughing and drinking to bother with keeping his diaper underwraps. Every once and a while our eyes would catch and I would flash a wry smile that said "I know what you are wearing under there little boy", and I would look at his bulging crotch and watch a fresh wave of blush run across his face as he was forced to remember that he was nothing more than a diaper boy at the big boy party.

After a while he turns to me and whispers in my ear. "How am I supposed to use the bathroom with this thing. I have to piss like a mother fucker!"

I looked at him and laughed at such an obvious question.

"You mean, you use them too?!" he asked.

I nodded.

"Oh man I don't think I can do that." He said looking worried that he had gotten in over his head. "I'll just hold it."

I cracked a sinister smile and responded "Let me know how that goes for you."

Finally with the night wrapping up, I tell him I am headed home. We walk back to my place, me very soaked, from all the beer drinking and him still waddling but looking dry. I can tell because he is doing the desperation dance. I watched him all the way home crinkling back and forth, waddling like a little toddler but refusing to use his diapers. Trying to cling on to that little bit of dignity he had left.

As we climb the stairs to my apartment he makes a hard turn to go to the bathroom. I stopped him.
"There is nothing you need in there."
"But I need to piss."
"Lets get that diaper off first, buckaroo"

In my room I take my pants off. I see him stare at my soaked M4. "Jesus…" he mutters "You really did it."
"Its not that bad," I respond. "It actually feels kinda good. You don't have to worry about leaking the diaper will catch it all. It feels warm."

"But isn't that gross," he worried. It was hard to hear what he was saying casue of all the squirming he was doing. He was really determined to hold it, and after 6 or 7 beers that was quite a feat indeed.

I walked over to him and pulled down his pants.  "What have we here?" I joke, "Is that a diaper? ARE YOU WEARING A DIAPER?!" More blush runs to his cheeks turning them an embarassing shade of crimson. "A diaper boy. Doesn't look like a college soccer player to me? Maybe we should have you play your next game in this?"

He stood in silence taking my abuse. His member awake and fully paying attention to the conversation, looked like he heard something he liked. His outlined member raised the smooth front of his diaper like braille adding a mountainous texture to an otherwise uniform surface. "Still a little excited eh? Wearing diapers does make you hard?"

"Knock it off dude, Im not a little boy", he fights

"That's not how it looks to me" I grab the front of his diaper and squeeze. It looks to me like someone likes being in a diaper.
He lets out a moan, an throws his head back. "I just like being told what to do." he said
"Well in that case, piss yourself." I said calmly

"What?!"

"You heard me." This time I said it slower. "Piss yourself. I want you to use that diaper. They aren't cheap."

"ummmmmm.. uhhhh I dunno…"
I squeeze his diaper again. and moved my hands up to his tummy. I press softly on his engorged bladder. "Just relax dude, it will feel good I promise"

And with that I felt him relax. A shudder trembled through his limbs as his muscles released their tension. With my hand still on his crotch, I felt the heat escape his cock, and spread across the front of his rapidly warming diaper. White territory slowly invaded by a yellow intruder. His hands found their way to his face in a desperate attempt to hide from the humiliation of pissing his pants for a stranger. I began to squeeze and release, squeeze and release as he let more and more urine into his diaper. The relaxation turns into moans and grunts. The now swollen diapers pressing forcefully against his now rock hard dick.

His diaper, throughly soaked, I tossed him to the bed.  I do my best to rub his diaper into his pulsating member  while touching his rock hard body knowing that I probably would never get a chance to do this again. "Good boy, you filled up your diaper, look how soaked it is. Lets get you outta this thing."

And with that I tore away the used garment and mine as well. We tumbled around the bed the smell of sweat and urine and male testosterone permeated the air. He spent the night wildly fucking me, our wet diapers casual observers in the corner. In the morning we had a cup of coffee and joked about the previous night.

"I can't believe that happened." He said, ringing with disbelief.

"Me neither" I grinned back. Still sore from the nights activities, but keyed up with the cache of pornographic images now locked in my minds vault.

And that was that. I graduated the next day, and we said our goodbyes. However, that was not the last time we played together. But that is a story for another day ;)



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Friday, August 31, 2012

Guest Entry: On Tumblr - by DiaperWhiz





Guest Entry by DiaperWhiz

This is a piece I wrote about tumblr. If you don't know what tumblr is, it is a micro-blogging site that deals primarily in photos. There is other kinds of content there yes, but mostly images. Some people post images that are inspiring, some people post images of places they want to visit, and predictably some people post porn. If you are not aware of tumblr and you are in this community then I suggest you find out and be educated, especially when it comes to sharing visual content. This is not a piece designed to "hate on" anyone who has a diaper related tumblr, it is merely an issue that i think needs some clarity in this community and a healthy discussion. 

Over the years I have gone back and forth about showing images of my face on diaper sites. I want to meet people in the community and have them know i am a real person, and I'm not some creep. And a guess part of it is vanity too. wanting to show a cute face and getting nice things said about you. I never got nice things said about me growing up so maybe it comes from that. But I also think part of it is about wanting to give something back to the community. I like to know that I can be a cute boy in a diaper and share it with others if it brings them joy or makes them feel normal or sexy ;) . I like sharing that we all share this interest and its kinda naughty and its kinda nice. But its about the community in the end. Sharing our common kink.

I have found this to be good for helping meet new people, its always nice to have a face when you are chatting with someone. I hate chatting to torsos or diaper crotch shots. Having a face makes the other person feel real and it validates you. people will tell me that if I put it out on the internet then I should expect that it will be downloaded. I believe that. I am a photographer so I am aware how people can take images from anywhere on the web. I don't mind if a couple of horney guys want to download my image and jerk to it, I mean I've done the same thing. There are some cute boys out there. Hollar! hahaha, but seriously thats what I share them for. a kind of quid pro quo

But every once and a while I would get creeped out by something someone said or by just about having my face out there that. Like many people I went through purge periods. For a while I was putting pics out there but blurring my face. I think lately though since its clear that I am not going to be famous, lol, I have started putting just a few face pics out there again. That is until I saw one of my images recently on tumblr. Lucky for me my face was cut out. Im not sure whether or not I should be offended by that but I was happy none the less.

I contacted the blogger and asked hime to take the photo down as it was not his and I had not sanctioned my sexy body to be salaciously thrown on to just any old blog. But he took forever to get back to me. When he did, he removed the photo. But now my image was on a dozen or so more sites, because they had reblogged it from him. Think of it as a visual retweet. But there was no way that I could contact every single blog owner and have them remove the image. Down the rabbit hole my poor diapered bottom went. and to add insult to injury, it wasn't even a flattering photo.

I had been keyed onto diaper tumblrs because I myself was a tumblr user. Though I posted inspiring images to help me with ideas for my photography. One day I searched the keyword diaper and all these tumblrs came up. At first I was overjoyed! it was churning out some really great material. I never wanted to leave my bed! until of course that I realized that my images were at risk too.

Sharing images online now it totally different from when I was first using the internet. When I first came on the scene people were still using news groups to talk about ABDL related info. Granted I was 13 at the time and the internet was very new, but when you spent your early teens waiting minutes (GASP!) minutes for a single image to download, well you can imagine that never in our wildest dreams did we think that sometime like tumblr was even possible. Boy were we wrong.

There has always been a kind code in the community. I've liked that. There was something about wearing diapers that scared us all from a young age. As if it was so weird that we would literally DIE if anyone found out. I remember feeling like that. Something that I have always appreciated about this community is its discreetness. Why do you think diapers come through the mail in plain shipping. Because we want to be discreet. Just because we share images with each other online in our little corner of the web, does not mean that we don't wish to be discreet. When someone takes an image of an ABDL  who has been brave enough to show their face and shares it online without their consent than that is a betrayal of the community and the discreetness that we all live by. 

I know that some people don't care if their images are out there and to them I say thank you. haha. But its tricky unless you know people personally to stop the sharing. Im not saying that people shouldn't post their pictures, I like seeing a cute boy in a diaper, Im not even saying that diaper tumblrs should go away. But I do think that a code of ethics is needed. Crop the face if you don't have permission, or get permission. Don't leave your fellow diaper brethren open to exposure or outting. 
 
How would you feel if the diaper was on you?
 
 
 
DiaperWhiz is a regular Abysitter.com reader and contributor. He previously completed a Q&A you can read here, and was a winner of my First-Ever ABDL Photo Contest... you can see his entry here. If you enjoyed reading his entry please let him know - contact him directly or leave a comment below. And if you would like to contribute something of your own, please contact me at abysitter@gmail.com. Thanks, DiaperWhiz!

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Q&A: DiaperWhiz

Up today, a bio/Q&A from Diaperwhiz. Diaperwhiz is a long-time blog reader and past contributor. He's submitted a Q&A, some awesome diaper pics, and there are a few stories thrown in there as well. 

Thanks, DiaperWhiz!


Q&A With DiaperWhiz


Name/Nick: Diaperwhiz
Age: 28
City/State/Country: Brooklyn NY
AB/DL/BabyFur/Other? AB/DL, sometimes dabble in baby fur stuff


The questions are:


• When did you first realize you were ABDL? 

Well it all started at that magical age of 12. The age when most boys start noticing girls, but I just started noticing boys. For some reason I used to love whitey tighties. When we started changing for gym class, it was the first time that I had seen other boys my age in their underwear. It was like hormone overload! It was during a time when lots of boys were wearing boxers, so when I would see the white waist band of some fruit of the looms briefs peeking out over the top of someones jeans, it got me all fired up.

I think there is something about the construction of briefs that mimics a diaper. the way it hugs your body, the color, the softness (i was raised on cloth diapers). This was about the same time I started pissing my pants on purpose. Both of my parents worked so I was often home alone in the afternoon. I would hold it all day long and come home and just let loose in my pants or my underwear. There was something about the release and the warmth that really turned me on. I used to imagine boys from school as bedwetters or pant passers.

When I was 13, our family got the internet and I was first exposed to diaper fetish. It was the thing that I had been building up to for all those years. There was something about the humiliation of ti that really got to me. I think it was the same thing with briefs, like if you were cool you wore boxers, but if you were a mommas boy you wore briefs. When it peeked out of your jeans it was a little indicator to everyone what a little kid you still were. The same thing was true for diapers, it was like a reminder of had no control. That when I started to met other TBs and I haven't looked back since!



• What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen? 

When I was 14 my parents got me a waterbed. I am not sure why I wanted one so bad, i hated sleeping on it lol. The one good thing about it was that it was in the basement so I was removed from the rest of the house and it was right next to the washer and dryer for when I had "accidents". Because the mattress is made of rubber, to doesn't matter if it gets wet, something i used to my fullest advantage. On Saturday mornings I would wake up early and wet the bed. I would sometime imagine that i had to be punished and put back into diapers. But i used to wet the bed on purpose and suck my thumb. sometimes I would fall asleep and wake up in a cold wet bed. So I knew what it felt like to be a real bedwetter!

Sometimes I would wear pajamas sometimes just my underwear, but I never had any diapers. I tried wearing all of my briefs on top of each other, but it was too confining and i would end up pissing through them all in any case. It wasn't till I moved out after high school that I was able to get my first case of goodnites.





• Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted? 

When I was in high school, I got involved in some bad stuff, as a result I had to go away for a little bit. When that happened my parents cleaned my room from top to bottom and found a stash of diaper pictures from my online exploits and friends. It was mostly jerk off fodder for a horny 16 year old but as you can imagine my parents kinda spazed. They thought there was something seriously wrong with me and sent me to therapy. I never really talked with my therapist about it, i just stonewalled them. It felt so strange to have someone forcing you to talk about this aspect of my life. After a few years I think my parents forgot about it, they haven't mentioned it since.



• Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain.

For me I go through these cycles of wearing and not wearing. Not because I am ashamed or want to disavow diapers forever, but sometimes I think I am spending too much time on RUP or ABDLC when I should be studying and or working. When that happens I tend to distance my self from diapers. When I am feeling alone however, its nice to know there is a community to come back to. I sometimes get good feedback on my photos and it makes me feel good, I am hoping that one day it will lead to a knight in a shiny diaper to whisk me away from all of this. haha.

But the cycle continues, binge/purge, but that cycle is more drastic now with stuff like tumblr (which is the main reason i don't share face pics anymore), because you can consume all these images with never really having the social aspect. You binge on the "porn" but never get to share anything real with someone who has grown up dealing with the same things. Thats why I think stuff like this Q&A is so meaningful and important. Its great to share sexy images of each other padded up to the extreme (Please keep em coming) but that cannot be the entire basis of the community, there needs to be some substance.



• For collegebabies/DLs, did this interest affect your college experiences? If so, how? 

Oh hell yeah. There are so many stories here hahaha!

My sophomore year of college our ultimate Frisbee team was getting ready for a tournament. All of our tournaments are costume themed. To give you some context there are about 14 guys on the team, all with varying levels of hotness, but everyone is in really good shape because of all the running and jumping. So anyway, some people on the team were throwing out ideas and someone joked that we should just wear diapers. I loved that the idea didnt come from me, so I was able to add my voice without seeming too pushy. People laughed and somehow it was decided, so you better believe that I got myself in charge of getting the diapers. I busted out a case of bambino biancos, and on the day of the tournament we put them on. It was really funny because some guys wore their boxers underneath, and you could tell that the idea of wearing just a diaper without some cloth between them was too much, but some other guys were totally into it! They got buck ass naked and threw on the bambinos between their legs. Laughing and wearing short thirst we all looked like little kids gone frisbee crazy!

During the games, we ran around and jumped in our diapers for all to see. and it was a great day. At night we always throw a party, and some of the guys continued to wear their diapers from the field into the party. It was hilarious. One of my good friends had a beer poured right in his diaper and walked around with very wet diaper for the majority of the party. It was so hot! haha, when I woke up the next morning, my diaper was obviously soaked, but it was cool to be able to walk in to see my roommate without being self conscious about my wet diaper, because he was all cuddled up still in bed in HIS DIAPER! lol

For halloween my freshman and senior years I went as a dead baby. I would wear my footed sleeper and my pacifier and some zombie make up, but then a huge diaper. I think I worried a double stuffed Cushies. I had to waddle around the party and everyone thought my costume was amazing. People kept asking me where I got such colorful printed diapers, and I told them the halloween store which some of them didn't look like they believed. In any case they never knew how wet I was underneath! I was the best college baby partier ever!

Right before my graduation they had a party for all the seniors. I met this guy who was kind of an acquaintance, and we hit it off. He was a cute little soccer player, with a devilish face and a tight body. We had seen each other around but never really hung out. I was just about to graduate so clearly i was wasted, and im my drunken stupor I divulged my diaper secret to him. Instead of being creeped out he was intrigued and asked if he could see my collection. I said sure. I pulled out an arena to show him and all I heard him mutter was "jesus". Then he turned to me and said, "well, aren't you gonna put one on me?" I was shocked! I never thought that we would ask for me to diaper him. I was so surprised that I was shaking and I laid him down and slipped the diaper on his body. I made sure to give him plenty of powder. Then all diapered up he just laughed and pulled up his underwear over his thick diaper and pulled up his jeans too. He struggled to get his pants back on over the padding and it was funny as hell to see him try to walk around. He kept saying "its so bulky!" to which I replied "thats the way I like it". After he was all padded up he said "your turn". He tossed me on the bed and padded me up good. Then we headed out to a party down the street, thickly padded the two of us.

I loved watching this little soccer player waddle down the street to a party. I could see the top of his diaper peeking out of his jeans and it was so adorable and HOT! When we got to the party he started downing beers. We started playing cards with some friends at the table. He kept leaning over the to make jokes and play hands and you could totally see his diaper peaking out from behind his pants! I am sure others at the party saw it, but no one said a word, and I was content to see the little soccer baby make a fool out of himself. On the way back he struggled to walk down the street, like only someone who has never worn an adult diaper before in public could. When we got back to my place I realized the reason for his exaggerated waddle. He must of had too much to drink at the party cause he soaked that diaper! I can still remember taking him back to my room and sliding of his pants as he stood their sheepishly looking at his full diaper in the mirror. He just laughed and said, its a good thing you brought protection! HA!



• How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating? Married life? Parenting? 

Not really, I would love to find a AB/DL BF but all the guys I meet from the scene aren't what I would consider boyfriend material. I feel that many guys from our scene are either too focused on diapers, or dont know how to engage me in good conversation. As a result the people I date rarely know about this fetish and I rarely meet cool DL dudes that could become something more longer term. Its strange because in NYC you would think there would be a huge DL community that we could draw from, but the people I have met are few and far between. I have met some great friends in the AB/DL scene but no boyfriends...



• Some experts believe that we become the way we are because of traumas experienced at an early age, including abuse and/or neglect. Do your life experiences bear this out? 

My childhood was kinda fucked up so I would believe that. I wore diapers til i was 5 years old, and my parents told me that for some reason I didn't want to give them up. Looks like I never did! haha, but I think that through the divorce and some other eff up family stuff I retreated to diapers because of their security. That makes sense to me.



• Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissybabies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know.

I sometimes get down with baby furs. I think there is something cool and raw about being an animal. I belong to a few TF websites, and have always been a littler turned on by transformations. When I was younger the donkey scene from Pinocchio used to creep me the fuck out, now i think its tied to that whole humiliation thing. I have dabbled around with puppy play, and I really liked it. But I haven't done much exploring with it. All I have to say is that a boy, properly padded, with a pup tail poking out from his diaper is hella HOT!



• If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel. 

I don't want to act like a baby, I like wearing baby clothes and would consider myself an AB, but i don't do baby talk or anything like that. I like to think of myself as more along the lines of a boy who is punished and put back into diapers and baby clothes as humiliation for being a bedwetter or for being naughty. Growing up in web 1.0, there wasn't a lot of image sharing, just cause it used to fucking take so long! haha, so I used to read a bunch of stories where the humiliation aspect was a huge part of it. I used to get so turned on by them. I remember one where there was a teenage boy whose brother gets put back into diapers, but while the parents are away the teen tries on a diaper and accidentally locks himself in the crib only to have his family come home and find him as the baby, and decide to keep him that way. I have to thank deeker for implanting all these fantasy scenarios in my head that I would act out over and over again in my high school mind. haha.





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