Up today I have a story and some photos from LittleBabyJedi.
LittleBabyJedi has contributed diaper pictures to the blog before, under a different username. He's consolidated things into one ABDL persona, which happens to be on Tumblr: LittleBabyJedi.
HOW I CAME TO BE AN ABDL
by LittleBabyJedi
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How did I come to be an ABDL?
It goes all the way back to when I was 6-8 years old. I remember having dreams of being diapered and wanting to wear diapers. I couldn't understand why I was having these dreams. All I knew is that every night when I went to bed I would dream about diapers. About this time my youngest brother was still a baby. I would dream of taking his place or be jealous that he was in diapers.
I remember that anytime a commercial came on for diapers that it would grab my attention. The same with cartoons that had diapers in them.
I remember taking one of my brothers diapers one night and putting it on. It felt natural, safe, and I felt at peace. Over time my little stash under my bed grew. Then my supply stopped when my mom switched my brother from disposable diapers to cloth diapers. I didn't know what I was going to do.
I wasn't using any of the diapers that I collected. I didn't what my mom would do when she would notice extra diapers in the diaper pail. Finally one night I decide to use one of the diapers. I just wet it and fell asleep wearing. The next morning I hid it in a bag under my bed. Well my mom was cleaning the room while I was at school and found my stash and the wet diaper. At this time I was sharing a room with my other brother who was 3 years younger than me. My mom gathered my brother, my sister, and myself in the room and wanted to know whose stash it was and why she found it. None of us answered. So she diapered all three of us and left us in the room till one of us confessed. Several hours later she came in and said we could take them off. My stash was taken.
I didn't know what to do at this point.
I should probably take a break here to explain a little about my childhood. I am the oldest of 4. I don't really know my biological father, cause my mom divorced him when I was 2. There was a big court case and I was the center of it. I don't remember any of it cause I was so young. I don't remember a lot of my childhood. What I do remember is only negative stuff. The stuff that one should not remember from their childhood. My step dad has a temper. He was always yelling and angry. He would hit the walls but never any of us. I was always scared of him, to were I never wanted to help him with projects. I don't remember having a childhood. I always had my nose in a book growing up, I was into comics and star wars. Was always imagining that I was in the books I was reading. I never was close with any of my siblings. I was the outcast.
Ok back to my story.
Now that my mom has taken my stash, I was back to dreaming of them, keeping my eye out for diaper commercials. Sometime later I am not sure how long my mom went back to work. So now we had to go to a babysitters. My luck changed when the babysitter had a little one in diapers. I started to sneak diapers home in bag. Grew my diaper stash back up. Then my mom found my stash again. This time she loads all four of us kids up into the car and heads towards the store. She says that she is going to diaper all four us up in the store and make us wear diapers till one of us tells her why she found diapers again. Half way to the store I speak up that the diapers were mine. She asks why I had them. Response I gave her was that I was curious about how they were made. Don't know if she believed me or not, but she did turn the car around and head back home.
After that I was left with just dreaming about diapers. It was at this point that I started to find other ways to wear diapers. I would put a cloth diaper in my underwear to simulate a diaper, I would wear multiple pairs of underwear, would also take hand towels and put them in my underwear to simulate a diaper. I did this for many, many years.
This continued into middle, junior high, and high school. There were time that I could get my hands on a diaper or two. I would take two baby diapers and tape them end to end to make a diaper that I could wear and fit into.
All through the years I thought that I was the only one that liked diapers. That I was going to go to hell, and never find anyone to be with. My life has not been a pleasant one. There has been a lot of negative in. I was bullied all through my childhood, al the way up to my junior year of high school. My family was always moving growing up.
I have been on the internet since it first came out. Always hanging out at the town library, helping people set up email address, and teaching people how to use the internet.
It wasn't till about 1998 that we got internet at the house. This is when I started to search to see if I was the only one. I had been flipping through a Readers Digest and saw an ad for goodnites. The first thing I ever searched for on the internet that was ABDL related was goodnites. The first two sites that I ever found that were ABDL were Deeker Diapers and Riley Kilo's site. I don't remember what the name or Riley's site was called at that time. I learned from both that A) I wasn't the only one and B) that there was a term for it all Diaper Lover and Adult Baby. Two other sites I remember were DPF and ABY. Sadly none of the site are still up except Riley's site Staypadded.com.
It was such a relief to learn that I wasn't the only one interested in diapers. I would boot up the computer and have it dial in for the internet. Yes I go that far back. I would go on after everyone else went to bed. I would look at pictures and read stories for hours. I remember having email pen pals with other DL's in other states.
I was very luckily back than that my parents never found out what I was doing back than. They thought I was up doing school research or play either Warcraft II or Starcraft. I was lucky in that back than the tenement was still knew and we didn't know about clearing the history or as I learned later to also clear cookies and the temp internet files.
In 2001 the family moved from California where I grew up to Kentucky my junior year of high school. By this time I had found more sites and more online communities. Also had several online ABDL friends as well.
During my senior of high school I had a job and a car, so I bought my first bag of Depends Diapers from Rite Aid. At the time I thought they were amazing. Later, many years later I would learn that they were not and that there were better diapers.
Beginning or my senior year my mom found not only my stash of diapers but my stash of diaper stories that I had printed out, and my history on the computer. She took me to see a counselor. The counselor and I only ever talked about diapers that first day. After the we only talked about day to day stuff. I ended up seeing the counselor twice a week my entire senior year of high school.
I don't remember when it was that year but my mom pulled me into her room one night to talk. She said that she didn't care what I did as long as I was happy and safe. The only thing she asked was that I don't do any of it in the house cause of my siblings. She was afraid about how they would respond and didn't want me to get hurt. I respected her wish and did a purge. As a quick side note I have done several purges over the years. Well that initial purge only lasted about a month I think.
This time when I started to get diapers back and go back online to the sites, I got better at hiding both my stash and tracks. I kept the diapers in my car in a GAP bag. Started to save stuff to disks, ( this was before flash drives, was still using disks in school) and learned how to better cover my tracks on the computer.
I would do a purge every time I started to see a girl ( before I came out and entirely different story). The purge would last about a few weeks to a month. I was afraid of them finding out. I got smarter and instead of getting rid of my stash I would just hide it and not use it.
Fast forward some years.
It wasn't till my last girlfriend that several things came to face. First off she was the first person I told about my other side. She was accepting. She would allow me to wear around her, to the movies and such. She even bought me cloth diapers and plastic pants to try. It was at this point that I started to identify as a DL with AB tendencies. I liked pacifiers, bottles, and loved the idea of onesies and sleepers.
She was also the one that helped me realize and discover that I was gay ( like I said another story).
Skip ahead some more...
I met my first ABDL in person. We met here on Fetlife. We were chatting and i had mentioned I was having a problem with my external hard drive and he said he could take a look at it and see if he could fix it. So a week later I go to his house and he takes a look at it. While he is looking at we start talking comics, star wars and such. Well to may a long story short we ended up becoming best friends. We would hang out once a week watching movies, or playing video games in diapers.
It was thanks to him that I got introduced to Abena M4, Super Dry Kids, and Teddy diapers. Which are all on my favorite diaper list. I also start to explore my little side more. Using pacifiers, and bottles more when I was over at his place. I found out that I was submissive. Problem was so was he, so I was made to be the big when we hung out, never little always the big bro who wore diapers.
I was listening to the BigLittlePodcast one day (Show Note) and heard about someone named Benny who made AB clothes on etsy, whose shop was called Never Grown Up. I looked them up on etsy and commissioned a batman onesie. After a short wait I was awarded with my first piece of AB clothes. I was in heaven. Sad to say that the shop is no longer open.
By now I have met a few other ABDL's in the area. We would hang out at my best friends house, play video games and be diapered.
Skip ahead to the past few months.
January I moved from Kentucky to Maryland. Shortly after moving here I started to catch myself sucking my thumb at night, feeling really little, watching a lot of cartoons, wanting to be diapered and looked after. A good friend pointed out that I was an AB and this was natural. I am wanting to explore this more. I like diapers, bottles, sippy cups, pacifiers, onesies and sleepers. I like to play with legos, have nerf gun wars, watching disney movies and cartoons. I don't like to do baby talk or baby food.
I am making a lot of new friends int DMV area. I am surprised at how many ABDL's or age players there are in the area. First day off that I get that falls on the DC little munch, I plan on attending.
Don't forget to check out his Tumblr:
LittleBabyJedi.tumblr.com
Got a story or photos to share?
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Got a story or photos to share?
Email me!
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18+, of course!
