Name/Nick: Broadwaybaby
Age: 25, but going on 2
City/State/Country: Twin Cities, MN, USA
AB/DL/BabyFur/Other? Both AB and DL
• When did you first realize you were ABDL?
Diapers have been a part of my life since the age of 5 or so. I first fully became aware of ABDL in 8th grade. I felt alone and like I was the only one out there like myself. I started searching on the Internet and came across such sites as: DPF and ABY.
• What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child and/or teen?
Growing up with my secret, I did many things to get my "fix." I used to take diapers from by babysitter's daughter, make makeshift diapers out of multiple pairs of underwear/towels and trash bags, stole diapers from retail stores (not my proudest moment), and finally started buying my own while in high school.
• Do your parents and/or siblings know about you and diapers? If so, please explain how, and how they reacted?
In order to answer this question about myself it is important to know that when I was growing up I lived with my mother (who is Southern Baptist and VERY conservative). Growing up with my parents divorced was extremely hard for me, but I made it through. When I was forced out of the closet, I came out of the ABDL closet as well. It was back in October 2005 and my older sister had over heard a conversation I was having with a guy on my cell phone outside. When I came in, she told me "You either tell mom, or I will." So, I built up as much courage as I could and told my mom I needed to talk to her. I took her to her room and said "Mom, I don't know how to tell you this, but I am gay." She freaked out saying "Of all my children, I NEVER thought that Satan would use you against me." Things settled down for a couple of days. Then one day when I came home from my after school job, my life had changed, as I knew it. My mother was so off the handle that I called my grandparents to come over. I told them that I was gay and couldn't stand their daughter. I ended up going to live with them for about a month. While I was staying with them "the light of God" showed my mother what was "hidden in the darkness." She broke into my locked filing cabinet and found my gay literature, and broke into a locked suitcase (with the help of my older sister) and came across…you guessed it, my diapers. Everything was confiscated, and I was not given access to it until I threatened to call the police and tell them she stole my property. As to the rest of my family finding out, my mother told them for me. My father had called while I was staying with my grandparents and asked about the diapers and me being gay. I told him everything in my own way and he only told me "Son, I love you and don't care if you are gay and ABDL, I just want you to be safe and happy." Out of my entire family, I am only truly accepted by my father and his side of the family. So yes, my parents, siblings, and most (not all) of my friends know that I am gay and wear diapers.
• Have you dealt with the shame and regret that is the binge/purge cycle? Please explain.
Oh, hell yes! I have dealt with the same and regret of binging and purging my diapers and accessories. After I fully accepted myself as gay and ABDL, I quickly stopped throwing things out (unless I am re-selling them). I realized that it is a part of who I am AND that I was just throwing away my hard earned money.
• For collegebabies/DLs, did this interest affect your college experiences? If so, how?
I will still answer this because while I was living with my mother I was in college for the fall and part of the spring semester. Diapers in college for the most part were secret. Only a few close friends knew about me liking diapers and being ABDL. I wore to classes and no one knew, and if they did, they didn't care.
• How has this fetish affected your social life and/or dating?
I refuse to let someone say that I can't have my cake and eat it too! Anyways, this fetish has not really affected my social life. I am pretty much an open book, and like I have previously stated, almost all of my friends know about my fetish. As to dating, I usually stick with trying to date people who are already part of this fetish, as a way to make it easier. If I ever date someone outside of the fetish, it will be on the second date that my fetish is revealed. As one of my favorite quotes goes: "If you want to be a part of my life, I am not editing out the parts you don't like!" ~ Arnold, 'Torch Song Trilogy' (1988). I believe that you shouldn't change a part of who you are to please someone else (unless it is harmful to your health).
• Some experts believe that we become the way we are because of traumas experienced at an early age, including abuse and/or neglect. Do your life experiences bear this out?
I personally believe that this is true for me. When I was younger around the age of 5, my mom had a boyfriend who lived with us. One day we were going to my great aunt's house and on the way I started calling him a baby for some reason. He told me that if I didn't stop calling him a baby, when we got home he would show me who the baby was. Of course, I kept it up and when we got home, I was sent to my room. My mom and her boyfriend came in and told me to lie down on the bed. That is when I saw one of my little sisters diapers. I started to cry, but it had no effect. I was diapered and made to stay in my room. After a couple of hours I was allowed to take the diaper off. I said that I was not a baby and threw the diaper away. To this day I can still picture myself in bed, under the covers feeling the diaper, and crying. Well, as you can see, diapers now are a part of what makes me "me."
• For the little dunces, please tell us about what it was like to discover this fetish/lifestyle on the Internet. Please be at least 18 at the time of writing, but be specific about what age you discovered it, what sites helped you, and keep this part PG for obvious reasons.
When I discovered this fetish/lifestyle on the Internet it was like a divine intervention for me. I previously stated that I found DPF and ABY while in 8thgrade, but those sites just showed me that I am not alone; I am not a freak of nature, I am normal.
• Do your interests involve a subset of this community, such as babyfurs, diaper disciplinarians, wet/messy, sissy babies etc.? Please tell us about it. I won't even try to be specific here; just tell us what you think people should know.
My interests do involve a subset of this community. Besides ABDL I also get into being in a wet/messy diaper (messy only when there is time to do that), WS, and some light to mild BDSM.
• What % of your sexual activities and/or masturbation incorporate diapers? Has this caused problems for you?
Hmmm, I would say 50% for sexual activities/masturbation involving diapers. Yet, I can still have sexual relationships and get off without having diapers involved. Does this constitute as an answer or is this a trick question?!
• If you get into the regression aspect of ABDL please tell us more about that. If you do not, and you have feelings about being lumped into a fetish involving it, explain how it makes you feel.
I do get into the regression aspect of ABDL. I enjoy being able to be in a state where I am treated just like a baby by a daddy. I love being diapered, fed, and cuddled, etc. However, I have to be in the right frame of mind and with the right person to truly regress.
Don't let yourself be limited by my questions. If you have anything else at all that you would like to say please feel free to say it here:
Well, all I can say is that in regards to the ABDL lifestyle, I would like to note the percentages. I am 60% AB and 40% DL, but it can flip flop depending on my mood.
When it comes to the rest of me, well, I am a multi-faceted person. ABDL does not make up 100% of who I am; it is just a part of me that I don't think will ever disappear. I have come so far in the past 6 years and am very proud of myself for that.
I hope that this Q/A has answered enough about who I am in the community! If anyone wants to know more they can contact me on diaper-bois and/or rupadded. I am always open to making new friends and enjoy getting to meet local ABDL's here in the Twin Cities, so hit me up!
P.S. I have been told that my full story would make a great movie. If anyone out there knows someone, let me know!
